10/23/2010

It’s been a…strange?  unusual?  off? week for me.  To be honest, I sort of feel like I’m suffering from a "mini" despressive episode, but for the life of me, I can’t seem to figure out the cause or the trigger.   Maybe it’s a combination of hormones and stress and fatigue (because I haven’t slept well for weeks).   I don’t know… I just haven’t been feeling like myself lately.   I’m not motivated to do much beyond the basics.  I’m hoping with the second trimester coming up I’ll snap out of it and get back to normal, because my house is definitely suffering.  It’s a wreck. 

And I am so tired lately.  Instead of getting all the good, steamy pregnancy dreams, I’m having nightmares about zombies and that movie "The Happening" (which I haven’t seen in over a year – WTF!).  Plus, there’s Ben, who I love dearly.  But he just isn’t the most peaceful bed companion, and it’s going to be impossible to transition him to his own bed anytime soon because he still nurses constantly at night.

I think I’m getting a bit overwhelmed  with all the things that I know are going to need to be done, even though I have plenty of time at this point.  Well, I take that back.  I can’t really start any BIG projects until after Christmas and the busy season at work is over.  So, January.  Which leaves me….five months?  That sounds like a lot of time, but there are some major heavy duty overhauling of rooms in the house, moving Ben to his own bed, getting my own room ready for the birth, etc.  I just need to make a master to-do list to get it all on paper and off my brain.  And I need to try to relax and enjoy the holidays, as tough as that is when it I work retail.  We’ve already got most of our Christmas merch out, which gets me excited for the holiday, but by the time it actually rolls around I’m sick of looking at it.  Lol.

Anyway, I’ve got to straighten up the living room so the kids can decorate their pumpkins later.  I’ll try to be back for a longer entry later.