to homeschool or not to homeschool

 

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I’m completely unashamed of the fact that I haven’t done a damn thing all day, nor did I attempt to do anything other than sit on my rear end and watch the first three discs of season six of The X-Files.

Inexplicably, Ben has completely flip-flopped his schedule.  He spends the bulk of the day – from noon to eight – zonked out, waking only to nurse and get a diaper change.  Then at night, he squirms around in bed and wants to nurse every half hour. 

This makes me one very tired mommy, because I no longer have the opportunity to take a nap in the middle of the day.  Hence the reason I sat on my ass all day today.  I was/am freaking tired.   I’m going to ask Mom tomorrow if she doesn’t want to try keeping Chloe overnight this Saturday or next.  I love that little girl to pieces, but I need a break from the tantrums or I’m going to go nuts.

In addition to those stressful things, I’ve also been wrestling with the homeschool issue.  I want to homeschool for two reasons: I believe it will be the better educational choice for my children, and it will allow them to avoid vaccinations altogether, which I believe do more harm than good.  The really tough issue I have to examine is – do I have it in me to educate my children?  There are some days, like today, that I’m absolutely sure I don’t.  The little selfish part of me comes out and reminds me that if I send them to public school, I’m guaranteed a few hours’ break from being Mommy five days a week.  Am I even capable of homeschooling?  I can barely manage to keep the dishes done and the laundry folded – what in the world makes me think I can educate two children? 

And what if I have to go back to work?  Do I want to juggle a career, plus being Mom, plus being Teacher? 

These are the things that are keeping me up at night. 

It is normally not so difficult for me to make tough decisions.  I am usually able to see the best route and decide accordingly, but this just has me stumped. Part of me wants to just say "whatever the issue is with homeschooling, we’ll work through it and do our best."  But what if my best isn’t up to par?  What if I start slacking off?  Can I HS without proper help and support from Aaron (because we all know the work will be left up to me)? 

But then I think of all the wonderful things we could do, all of the time we would spend together as a family and I think "Dammit, yes I AM going to homeschool." 

And why is all of this bothering me so soon, when the kids have several years before they reach kindergarten age?  Because Chloe turns two in a week (!!!!!) and has her check up with the pedi on Tuesday, during which time he will most definitely want to start putting together a vax schedule.  And when I think of the reaction Chloe had the last time she was vaxed (at four months), I cringe.  But if I don’t vax and then have to send the kids to school, I’m stuck layering shots on them like I don’t know what in order to get them caught up in time. 

Really, I want to bang my head against the wall right now. 

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January 15, 2009

i was homeschooled for three years (grades 4-6), and my younger brothers were homeschooled until 3rd grade. i obviously don’t know what it’s like to be on the teaching side of it, but my bros were totally prepared for 3rd grade and at the time my mom had 5 kids, including an infant. i think with kids that young, almost anything can be a “lesson,” whether it’s cooking or gardening or whatever….

January 15, 2009

Homeschool! Definitely Homeschool! Homeschool! Do it! Just buy the books to do it with and you’ll do it better than the school ever could! It’ll make a lifetime of difference! 🙂

(saw you on front page) – I was homeschooled by my mother until I hit highschool.. the material they have for home school parents is very easy to teach and there are a lot of resources. I’m glad my mom did it. It allowed her to spend time with my sister and I, instill her family values, and because of the 1 on 1 teaching, I was able to grasp the concepts quite well. Do it, its worth it! 🙂

January 15, 2009

…so you’re not necessarily following a lesson plan. my older bro and i were vaccinated, but the younger 3 were able to opt out of all vaccinations and still go to public school because we both had bad reactions to the MMR. i loved being a HS kid, but it’s not for everyone. we were able to teach ourselves for the most part, my mom just made sure we were on track.

January 15, 2009

Caught you on the front page… It is a tough decision! I have decided to homeschool (my kids are little). Actually, our 3 year old is attending a cooperative nursery school 2 days a week, b/c I want him to socialize with other kids. I have materials to teach at home 3 days a week. I have TONS of supportive & experienced homeschool moms around me, which is wonderful. Of course, one of the greatest things…if it isn’t working for you & your family…there’s nothing that says you have to commit to it all the way thru H.S. I went to the state convention when it was held here locally – it was great to have access to materials & stuff, but more importantly, I appreciated learning the rules & regs vary from state to state regarding record keeping. Good luck to you!

January 15, 2009

I will be sending my kids to school for various reasons, but have a few friends who have made the choice to homeschool. I think it depends on the kid as well as the parent. I think some kids would thrive better in homeschool and some in a classroom setting. What works best for your family. You might just want to see how it goes, how do you teach her now? and as she gets to preschool age you can

January 15, 2009

see what works, by then you might have already decided its best for you to get a break from each other lol (like i have lol) one thing too, though. If you did decide to send them to school, you can get a vaccine waiver. dont let deadlines get you down…you have lots of time! 🙂

January 15, 2009

homeschool. just do it. does WV not have vaccine exemptions? what kind of a reaction did she have? i work full time as a nurse, my DH is a 4th yr med student and i homeschool my 6 yr old. she’s a fairly independant worker and we have found a curriculum that works well for us, but it took us years of going back and forth before we took the plunge. she went to K for one semester then i pulledher out and im SO glad I did. keep praying about it and the answer will come in due time. good luck!

January 15, 2009

your front page says “i believe in homeschooling” you already know your answer 😉

January 16, 2009

After taking microbiology class last semester, I no longer understand why people refuse vaccinations. It’s a dangerous world out there, and we’re all susceptible. With that said, in regard to the home school issue, I say weigh your pros and cons. Will you be able to commit to a curriculum? If you do have to return to work, then what will your options be? I’ve heard from formerly homeschooled people who loved it and succeeded and from others who resented their parents because they didn’t feel adequately prepared when they entered college. Can you and will you do a good job? Choosing to homeschool is a big deal and shouldn’t be taken lightly. Homeschooling is an extremely positive thing when done well and can be somewhat of a travesty when not. I wish you luck in making the right decision for your family!

January 16, 2009

I have the same problem. I want to homeschool but I’m so scared I won’t be good enough at it.

If I could I would Homeschool. But for now I homeschool my 3.5year old part time in the evenings. And even with that he’s head of the children at his daycare

I think every homeschooling mom has those same worries and thoughts. Believe me, it’s not easy but it is WORTH it. There is nothing more important than your children. It almost seems impossible when they are tiny, but they will become more self sufficient. Also, why not skip the doctor appointment all together? You don’t need some doctor belittling you for your choices.

January 17, 2009

random: I’m in college right now to be a teacher and when ever i see someone who doesn’t vaccinate their kids I’m always amazed. I worked in an elementary school where a few kids didn’t get vaccinated and they had an outbreak of whooping cough in the kindergarten classroom. One child not getting vaccinated puts all of the children in the world at risk. I just, i would like to understand where you’

January 17, 2009

are coming from, because the only thing that makes sense to me to not vaccinate your child is a previous experience with your particular child with vaccines that caused them to be sick. Kids immune system are more than able to accept and fight off hundreds of thousands of viruses given in vaccines at once, and usually the max is 8 at a time. I’m just curious why you are again them?