The Deceptive Allure of Innocence

There is a woman I know that invokes wild desire in any man she meets…and although it is my habit of finding women less used by the eyes of the general public for my own objects of desire, I am somewhat ashamed to say that I am in no way special where this particular woman is concerned. Instead, I find myself in line with the rest of the male population, in competitive efforts to court her attention…but allow me to be perfectly clear. While you might think that she is mostly pursued simply because she is pursued, in the way that men are often pursued simply because they are pursued by other women, this girl is different. Different in every way from other women entirely. There is nothing particularly special about her, as a photograph, or a statue…she has an obscenely large mouth, unusually strong arms, and shoulders wider than her waist. What draws men, however, is the profound grace that she invokes from her complete lack of inhibition. Unlike most women, who seem to mentally crouch behind their bodies, controlling every gesture like the wizard of OZ…this woman’s body, instead, trails her mind without conscious consideration. She will fly, like a child, from subject to subject…chair to chair…dance to dance…without a moment of self reflection. Just watching her move about, knowing that her mind is completely elsewhere, is as sexual as watching a woman eat a popsicle…for what is sex but the act of watching a woman move without control or consideration?

It is one of the many factions of innocence that drive male desire without them really noticing. I think that both genders take "innocence" as an attribute for granted as appealing to men, without realizing that the appeal within innocence is much deeper, more varied, and less restrictive. Now, in list form, a dissection of the various elements of innocence, and their direct motivations for attraction:

Ignorance– this is for the men who don’t regard their bedroom performance as anything better than downright awful, and find an appeal in being with a woman who wouldn’t know a good round of intercourse from a bad one. It’s male insecurity at it’s most obvious, rooted in small penis fears and an aversion to being laughed at in bed.

Vitality– this one runs a little bit deeper, tapping into the dormant desires to procreate. Healthy complexions and vibrant energy make a woman a more desirable prize during the pre-intercourse moments of courtship, as well as providing him with the promise of a nimble and thoroughly satisfying partner during intercourse itself.

Inhibition– this is the reason spelled out above with the woman example. As people grow older, their reserve broadens into loathsome degrees of self preservation, which run the consequence of preventing any outsider from affecting the individual in any way, which completely contradicts a man’s sexual desires. A lack of inhibition not only displays a present-thinking-only and malleable personality, but also a sense of pride and confidence, which also make for a more desirable prize.

Wow man. Deep. Again. Where do you come up with this stuff??? really…

RYN: if it’s motivational, why has it until now only been bestowed upon those who’d already made a noteworthy achievement in their life? Sometimes even posthumously awarded? This is the equivalent of giving a kid an A on his report card in the hopes that he’ll “live up to” that grade. Then again, there are probably schools that already utilize this “revolutionary” technique. *rolling eyes* If not, it’s a good thing you’re private notes only or some idiot teacher/wannabe-child-psychologist might take it and run with it. Just another sign of the decline of humanity in general. As for me and my damaged self… in large part I hate people, and that’s “me being my own person 100%”. At this point my sole goal in life is to make it long enough to see it all come crashing down, and face the oncoming shockwave with a smirk and a quiet “I told you all so.” That’s a fine and fitting end for yours truly. I’m not a Borderline. Borderline is me. There’s a distinction there.

But we didn’t, and that’s the problem. Obama’s failed his promise to get the troops out of the middle east, since A) we’ve not seen a significant decline of troops in Iraq and B) he actually wants to INCREASE presence in the Stan… how’s that “ceasing the warmongering”, that people say we’ve accomplished by electing Saviour Obama??? I’m not seein it. I think basically it boils down to “wow,America elected a liberal socialist, so now they’re gonna transform into Europe…oh, and he’s black, too!” lol. Again I simply don’t see the need to ‘return to the Motherland’… we successfully gave them the double-barreled bird 230 yrs ago and I think there was a good and valid reason for that. Furthermore, “turning back” to emulate them is basically shitting on all that the Founding Fathers fought so hard for… and I still hold that if you want to live in Europe, then GO LIVE IN EUROPE. Jesus, what’s so hard about that? Why, WHY, WHY must we all be homogenous?!?! For all the talk of “tolerance” and “respecting differences”…I see very little of it going on…

Any damage done to the government that fails the people can be re-nigged when people get pissed and put the republicans back in charge, so I really can’t get behind what I can only perceive as a basic fear of change (man, I sound like a coolaid head don’t I?) I’m not sure what a “cool-aid head” is, so…uhm? Personally I like holier than thou sarcasm, though only when I’m the one delivering it. 😉 Anyways, history showed us that “damage done to the government” etc, can NOT be undone merely by swinging the pendulum the other way. In point of fact, I would argue that the Republicans and Democrats are basically these days the same thing, split by only a couple of major idealogical differences, and the reasoning and rationale for why they want what they want. It’s actually a GOOD thing that they’re so engaged in seeing each other as enemies and opposition, the “red vs blue” vision mode instead of actually focusing on what they want to achieve and find commonalities… if they did, we WOULD be facing a TRUE fascist government. So count your blessings, I guess.

Ryn: Well, I guess the reason why I want to run is that I keep finding it harder and harder to get over the past. It’s like I allow myself to be haunted because the feeling is addicting and I realize this. But what bothers me is that I can’t change it no matter how much I wish I could. So I want to run… just be alone and look at something pure for once.

Ryn: Well if I were to list a couple entries of mine that I would like you to read one would be Oscar Wilde…Who Is This Guys Anyway. One would be His Dreaming just because of how much I felt while writing it and Still by Foo Fighters because it is elaborated upon Just A Blur of Words. I guess I want to hear what you have to say. The fondness is mutual, but I wonder why on your end.