I Hate

feeling useless and like i don’t exist….i wish this all would end. I don’t know how to make it stop. What do i do. Where do i go? At some point I’ll just become invisible i guess.

This whole thing sucks and i don’t know how to go about stopping it. Ugh. I know what’s going on but i can’t do anything.

In other news Antonio cropped back up in my friends list on AFF. I suddenly had one extra friend and went to investigate…only to find it was him. Uhhhhh yeah. Very interesting.

Apparently he was inactive and his profile disappea while so, then reactivated his account and boom shows up again. How awesome. Blah.

I had a mini breakdown tonight. Because of money. Awesome. I just took a dilaudid so hopefully my brain stops thinking soon and i can go to sleep….

Randy is downstairs…i hate bothering him. I do that a lot. 🙁