NoJoMo #7
Can today really be the 7th? Geeze…I thought I was actually doing well, and I’ve already missed 4 days. Ha. Today’s will probably be fairly short since I have a bunch of other things to do before going to bed, but at the same time, I have so much to do that I NEED to write about it.
First of all, when Wes was home Saturday, it was great. I miss him so much when he’s gone, and I also miss the structure and routine of being collared. We had a discussion and he decided that me being collared so part-time just wasn’t working for me. It’s too much up and down, too much switching back and forth, so he decided on a more consistant routine. When he’s working, I am required to be collared every other day (and I can choose whether I would like to be or not on the off days). I will always have a specific duty (or list of duties) for the day. For example, today my job was laundry. And holy cow, did I ever do some laundry! But at the end of the day, I kind of felt like crap, because doing laundry doesn’t really make your house look any cleaner, and it kind of feels like you spent all day doing nothing. I was frustrated with myself, and he came home and reminded me that it doesn’t matter what the voice in my head is telling me – I belong to him, and he was extremely satisfied with the work I accomplished on my task today. That’s what is important. He really is a fantastic master.
I’ve also been required to start a slave journal (which is something I need to do when I get off of here). I have to write every day that I’m collared. And we also got a notebook for me to keep track of rules, lessons, ect. All in all, things are working very well at the moment. 🙂
Tomorrow I am not required to be collared, and I have a really busy day ahead of me, so I’m not sure what I’ll choose. I have to drive into Tappahannock to pick up Wes’ work boots that FINALLY came in. I also bought 15lbs of peppers today that I have to process (because they’re in the process of going bad) into sweet pepper relish. I have to clean my truck out and continue to try to catch up on laundry. I also need to clean the chicken coop and catch up on our bank account. I applied for food stamps again this month after having a conversation with my social worker, and I also found a charity type place that will pay $200 of the $450 we need to get the propane turned on, which is awesome. Money sucks right now, but I’m not letting it suck me into a black hole. We’ll ride it out.
Fairly certain Wes is about to go on a 6 month job, which is both awesome and really really sucky. The sucky part is that it’s not overtime – it’s 5 days a week, 8 hours a day. And it’s almost 2 hours away. So he’ll either be paying buttloads of money in gas every week or he’ll be paying for a hotel or some such, and since there’s no overtime, it hardly makes it worth it. 🙁 BUT it’s guaranteed employment for that long, which is something that’s rare in his line of work. AND since it counts as self-employment, we’d be able to deduct the expenses from his income and likely qualify for food stamps and some other helpful things, so who knows. We’ll see, I guess. I can’t imagine it’s going to be easy on Wes having to drive that much for that long. 🙁 One day we’ll own a giant camper and then the whole family will just go wherever the work is. Hehe.
Alright, gotta go throw Wes’ work clothes in the dryer, write in my slave journal, and do some knitting before the baby wakes up.
