This is what it feels like…

I haven’t written about this for fear of jinxing or ruining things but here goes…

The Wednesday before Thanksgiving when I went out drinking ( I can’t even remember if I wrote about that… ) we (me, Grace, Clyde) went to a local bar and saw tons of people we know.  Among these was a guy named Zach (not to be confused with the Zach who is now neighbors with J1.0…why do I know so many people with the same name?!) who is one of Grace’s childhood friends.  He comes around to her bonfires and stuff every so often and has told Grace he thought I was cute before and she said he always asks about me when I’m not around.  Nothing ever really came of it.  He’s a country boy, but super sweet.  Anyway he bought us some shots and then me, Grace & Clyde all went next door to another bar.  This was near the end of the night so I was pretty trashed.  Anyway I asked Grace for his number and texted him thanking him for buying us shots!  He wrote back the next day (Thanksgiving) and asked me what I was doing later that night.  I went over to Grace’s after family things and he was gonna come but ended up passing out.  

He texted me every day over the weekend and we kept trying to hang out but things would come up that one or the other of us couldn’t do it.  Finally Sunday he asked me to go to his house for a BBQ.  I went out drinking with Clyde beforehand then we headed to Zach’s and hung out for a couple hours before going to Grace’s.  As soon as we left Zach texted me asking if I wanted to go out to dinner sometime that week!  So we decided to go out Wednesday.  I went to his house and then we went and ate at TGI Friday’s.  I really didn’t know what to expect and was kind of nervous about the whole thing but we ended up laughing and talking the whole entire time.  After dinner we went to his place and watched Sons of Anarchy, then I left so we both could go to bed (we both work really early in the mornings).  He didn’t kiss me or anything but said he hoped to see me sooner rather than later!  

So Thursday I usually go over to Grace’s for American Horror Story, which I told him about.  He asked me if I wanted to come hang out after work before I went over there while I waited for Grace to get off so I did.  Some of his friends were over and we just hung out and had a drink.  He kissed me when I left. =) I texted him from Grace’s that I really liked hanging out with him and he said the same. 

Friday he invited me over to hang out with him and his friends.  We all played drinking games and I know his friends liked me which is good!  After awhile I went and sat on the couch and he came in there with me, I started falling asleep.  His friends all left and Zach and I just cuddled on his couch and I drifted in and out of sleep until about 11 when I went home so I could get up for work the next day.  I was just down the road from his place when he texted me and told me to come back and cuddle! LoL! I wish I could have! I told him I was sorry for making him miss hanging out with his friends and he said he could hang out with them anytime and he would much rather cuddle with me! AWEEEEE! =) 

Anyway Saturday morning I worked then went by Grace’s, then went and did some Xmas shopping.  Zach was out drinking with some of his friends but I told him I would get ahold of him when I was done with running errands.  I had planned to go to Grace’s that night when she got off work to drink and play games.  I bought a bunch of alcohol for us to try and make Skittles shots!  She was supposed to be off around 9.  I went over to Zach’s around 6 or so and was trying to convince him to go with me to Grace’s but he was really tired.  We sat down to watch some more Sons of Anarchy and the next thing I knew I was dozing off.  I kept trying to look at my phone for when Grace would text but ended up falling asleep!  Zach fell asleep too and it was so nice & cozy just snuggling up with him! I kept waking up and texting Grace that I was trying to come but I kept falling asleep.  Eventually she gave up on me! Zach and I slept on the couch til about 330 then went to his bed and slept and snuggled the rest of the night. I had to get up about 9 and go home to go to my brother’s fiance’s baby shower.

We talked yesterday and today and I already miss being around him!!! I never, ever thought I would feel this way about Zach of all people but here I am…feeling crazy and definitely like this could be the start of something REAL for once.  Funny they always say love comes when you stop looking and I feel like that is really what happened here.  Not that I’m saying I’m in love, but still…I am feeling feelings that I did not think I would and I like it.  A lot.  It feels safe and awesome and I can’t wait to be with him again! =)

Things really seem to be falling into place lately.  I’m slowly working on getting companies to lower my interest rate on my different credit cards and I’m even more slowly working on paying them down.  It’s going to be a long hard road but I know I can do it.  I haven’t used them in at least 2 months and as long as I continue on this path I’ll be okay.  

<3!