09/04/2013

Still no word from Justin.  I think he might have sent me a snap chat last night, but when I went to open it nothing was there…weird.  I didn’t want to be lame and text him like ummm resend your snap chat because what if it was a mistake and he didn’t? I dunno…fucking hell this sucks. I miss talking to him. It’s NOT FAIRRRRRRRRR! =( That’s my temper tantrum lol!

I keep going back and forth between texting him and waiting it out.  I mean it’s been like 4 days which feels like a lot but I guess it’s really not.  I just don’t know what to do.  I don’t want to be clingy and seem like I’m pushing things because that’s the last thing he needs right now.  But wtf?  I’m so confused.  It is really starting to feel like I did something wrong because it’s not nice or fair that he’s just not talking to me at all.  I get it…he needs time to let this info. soak in and deal with it but come on dude…DEAL WITH IT and see the fucking awesome girl who is standing right in front of you!!!!!!!!!!!!!

If I do text him (which I’m still leaning towards just waiting to hear from him but fuck waiting sucks, and what if he never texts me because he feels weird about the situation and thinks I do too or am mad?) I think I will just ask him something random like if he watched the Roast of James Franco.  Which was kind of disappointing actually.  One of the deer heads in his room (I know, right? bleh) is named James Franco! Hah.

I did not run yesterday just because I was so worn out when I got home.  Fuck is it weird going home to my parents house and sitting in my room that is overrun with shit and I have NO SPACE FOR ANYTHING!!!!!!!! And I’m not even halfway unpacked yet.  I unpacked a few boxes last night and got my PS3 set up again, so now I can game and watch netflix! =D YAY!

Today’s plan consists of working 715-545, then going home to run.  Then I might hit up Sean and see if he wants to go for a cruise or something just so I can get out of the house.  Knowing my luck he’ll probably be doing something stupid like hanging out with Justin at James’ house………..meh.  Must stay positive though.

Happy Hump Day

<3!