08/30/2013

I’m so tired I think I could dieeeeeee!

I found out Wednesday morning that I have strep throat. AWESOME. My throat had been hurting since Sunday night, but Tuesday night it got soooo bad and I could tell I had a fever because I kept waking up all sweaty and then waking up shivering. It was awful. I woke up Wed., called into work and went straight to the clinic. Got some meds and slept most of the day. Came back to work yesterday and worked 10.5 hours, then packed up a bunch of shit in the car and drove it to my parents house. Went by Sean’s to grab something. Went by Grace’s. Finally made it home and into bed at 11pm…kill me.

Now I’m at work again. Hoping I can get out of my OT today because I AM so tireddddddd and sick blah!!!!! =(

Anyway a few crazy things have happened.

Brad text me on Wednesday night. He informed me that he now has a girlfriend who he is bringing to Tomorrowworld. And still had the fucking nerve to ask me if THEY could camp with me…FUCK NO! =( Somehow I managed to play everything VERY cool. He asked if I would say hello to him if I saw him there and I said yes and that I wasn’t a bitch and he would always be my friend. But fuck….fuck fuck fuck. I hope I don’t run into them. ='( I could say more on this but I don’t want to dwell on it.
James-he text me last night apologizing for his behavior last weekend. I sent him a text this morning saying I accept his apology but that he needs to figure out what is wrong and fix it. And that I didn’t even know why he was mad at me but I can’t handle this anymore and because I care about him I am telling him that he needs help. He asked if we could talk on the phone or in person and I said he could call me tonight. So yeah…meh. Kind of dreading it.
Justin-nothing too new to report. I’m starting to feel like he is losing interest. =( Or maybe he never really was and really did only like me as a friend. He usually texts me before bed every night and when he has practice he texts me afterwards, but he didn’t last night. He has a show on Saturday night but he hasn’t actually asked me if I am going or said anything personally to me about it so yeah…I know nobody reads this dumb thing but what do I do?! Do I wait for him to ask me to go or personally tell me about it or do I just go? I only know about it because he posted about it on facebook the other day. =/ Still haven’t heard from him today. If I don’t…well then I will know something is seriously not right because I have heard from him every single day since we started talking. I hate this……..why can’t dating be easy?!
Moving-super behind because of being sick. Not sure how I will get everything done but it all has to be out by tomorrow. I know it will all work out, just hard not to stress. And saddddddddd I will be living in my parents house again. =(

I’m sure there is more I have to say but I’m too tired and sick feeling to think anymore…

Happy Friday.

<3!