08/05/2013

The weekend was pretty good! Saturday James and I went to eat lunch at a bar downtown St. Louis. It was good. Then we went to the Botanical Gardens, which was fun but it was very hot out. After we drove to the art museum, which is beside the zoo. We wanted to go to both, but it was SO PACKED…there were cars everywhere and we would have had to park really far, so we just decided not to go. We went to a meat market that we always hear advertise on the radio to get some stuff to grill on Sunday. Then we went by a liquor store that we also always hear about. Then we went to a local head shop because they were having 15% off. James got 2 new pipes. I got some pink socks with pot leaves on them. Then I saw some random guy looking at a really expensive neat looking (from afar) piece…I closed in on him and when he was done looking at it he said he was probably going to pass. I picked it up and OMG it was the most amazing thing I have ever seen!!! I have pics on my phone, I’ll have to try and upload them. Anyway, I ended up buying it. It was 200, but I got 15% off. I believe that is the most I have ever spent on a glass piece. I don’t think I am ever going to smoke out of it though…it’s too perfect and amazing. I’m so in love with it!

So after that we went back to his house and hung out and watched some episodes of Catfish. Then we hit up our friend Paul and we went to go play disc golf. That was my first time ever playing. It was really fun, but hard!!! Part of the course was through the woods and we literally had to hike up and down some crazy dirt hills! When we finished we went back to James’ place and played a bunch of Mario on the Wii. A couple other friends came over. I passed out on the couch for awhile then went upstairs to lay on the couch. I woke up at 2 a.m. and everyone was gone so I went home to sleep in my own bed!

Sunday went back out to James’ and a bunch of people came over again. We played more Mario and BBQ’d a bunch of food. Grace and her bf brought over their patio furniture and we all ate outside. It was kinda hot again though. Went home around 9 and crashed about 10. Now here I am…work. Bleh.

I haven’t really been talking to Mike too much. Texting here and there. We did talk Thursday for a bit on the phone. Today I finally asked him if he had a chance to look at those plane tickets and when he thought he could come. If he still wanted to. He said he wants to but he had to pay for his friends bachelor party and stuff for the wedding to he can’t. And I said well it kind of seems like you just don’t want to considering you won’t even think about when you COULD afford to come. Then he said some bullshit about 2 more shows coming up and he needs to have enough to move back up to Lake Tahoe (he works there in the winter) but that he might have money in October. I just didn’t say anything. What can I say? I’m mad and hurt. I know that even if I did say, hey come in October for our birthdays…he might say okay yeah, but then when the time comes I’m sure some fucking bullshit thing will happen and he won’t come. It’s pointless for me to get my hopes up and expect him to come when deep down I KNOW HE WON’T. I feel like a fucking idiot and it is really starting to feel like WHAT IS THE POINT in us even talking? I want to cry now. I hate guys…I hate bullshitters…I wish I would just meet my fucking Prince Charming because I AM SICK TO DEATH OF WAITING and meeting these low life losers in the meantime =(

On that note, I am ending this before I either a)scream with rage b)start crying at my desk or c)both