08/01/2013
I’m feeling slightly better today. This week at work has been SOOOOO stressful, I can’t wait for the weekend!
It is James’ (my best (guy) friend’s) birthday this weekend. Saturday we are going to the zoo, art museum, botanical gardens and then out to eat at this place in St. Louis that I’ve never eaten at, but I have been to shows there before. I’m excited! I’m not sure if he invited anyone else along but I’ve never been able to make it out to his birthday celebrations in all the 10 years we have been friends! So either way it will be fun. His actual birthday is Sunday so then I’m going to his house to BBQ! Should be an awesome weekend. Most of my other friends (Grace, etc) are going on a float trip! I wish I could go as it sounds really fun but I didn’t want to abandon James on his birthday and I don’t think he’s that in to float trips.
Anyway. So I never did get a text from Mike yesterday so when I got home from work I decided I’d text him at 8:00. I didn’t say anything about WHY HAVEN’T YOU TEXTED OR CALLED because that would have been bad! I just said "What’s up? You never told me how your show went on Monday. Good, I hope! :)" He texted back and said "Nope. I’m busy at work now, I’ll call you when I’m off". So I just said OK. I was going to try and wait up for him to call, but then I just decided fuck it…he doesn’t go out of his way to talk to me so why should I for him? I even almost turned my ringer on (which I NEVER do, my phone is always on silent) so I would wake up when he called, but I resisted doing that too. I woke up this morning to a text from him (at 1 a.m. my time) saying that he just got off, but was sure I was asleep and to call him when I get off work today. So I guess things are okay maybe and I’m just a freak. I need to stop trying to rush things. STOPPPPPPP. I am proud of myself for not turning crazy bitch on him though. =) If his show went badly I’m sure he must be kinda upset/down over it, so maybe that’s why he hasn’t been talking much to me. It will be nice to finally talk to him today though.
I can’t think of much else to say. This is my problem…I HAVE NO LIFE so I rely on other’s to make it for me…must figure out how to change this.
Tonight I’m going to cut my dad’s hair. I’m hoping he will loan me some money to go out with James this weekend, but I feel bad asking. At least I know I can pay him back in Sept. when I don’t have to pay rent anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I’m also getting a bunch of boxes from him so I can start packing…… =(
Happy Thursday!
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