07/31/2013

Bear with me because this will probably be a whiny entry…short though as I have nothing much to say.

My back is finally better! I had x-rays on Monday and they came back fine. I’m very glad about that and it is nice not to be in pain anymore!!!

Mike had a big show he has been promoting on Monday so I didn’t get to talk to him too much…I was kind of rude to him about it (not talking)because I forgot it was the day of his show but he seemed understanding. He even texted me when he got home like I asked him to and said he would talk to me when he wakes up tomorrow (which was yesterday)…I didn’t hear from him alllll day. The later it got I just kept staring at my phone wishing his name to appear, but it never did. I wanted to text him, but I resisted. Now it’s a whole new day and I still haven’t heard from him (it’s only 3 pm here, 1 his time) and I don’t know what to do. Just let it go? Or text him? Or just keep waiting? Or give up all hope??? Maybe this is his way of saying sorry you’re nutso I don’t want to talk to you anymore. I just don’t know. =/

Sometimes I feel like I build things up in my head to be way more than they actually are. Like with Brad. And now Mike. How silly of me to think he would actually be interested…

I wish more than anything right now I was back in Temecula, lying under one of the trees with his arms around me, kissing him and just feeling happy.

Maybe I’m just over reacting and he’s just busy and things will be fine. But I have a bad feeling…and nobody is ever THAT busy.

I turned in my 30 days notice to leave my apartment. I wanted to cry when I did it. It’s sad to think I will not be coming home to the same place I have been for the past year…I just need to think of the positive side of this. Hopefully it won’t be as bad as it seems.