Worries.

I’m trying not to get all clingy girl about this. But we all know me, so I have worries. I worry that Echo and I haven’t had phone sex in what seems like a long time. Is she still attracted to me? Does she just look at me as a good friend? But then she calls me baby and my worry goes away. And then I wonder if maybe that’s just habit, and it’s back. And here’s one I worry about. I worry that now that she’s single, she won’t want me. Some ridiculous part of me feels like I was safer when she had a girlfriend and I was the other woman. Because now if I ever get to become the girlfriend… will she get sick of me and want someone else? Whatever happened to me playing it cool and taking it as it comes? Fuck. I fell in love, and that has never turned out well for me.

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March 18, 2011

Have u tried to bring up the phone sex like being the one to start it or has it just not came up? She may be a little bit sad about breaking it off most people usually are at first even if it was for the best and sometimes that can effect the desire to have sex. Or if you talk to her at a certain time everyday try it at a different time to change it up some. Or surprise her with a sexy text.

March 18, 2011

Have u tried to bring up the phone sex like being the one to start it or has it just not came up? She may be a little bit sad about breaking it off most people usually are at first even if it was for the best and sometimes that can effect the desire to have sex. Or if you talk to her at a certain time everyday try it at a different time to change it up some. Or surprise her with a sexy text.

March 18, 2011

Hey hun, I found your new diary and now I am back on open diary for good! I’m going to catch up on you cause for awhile you were moving with someone else and I lost track! And as far as your new endeavour..I use to worry about the same thing and I think you make yourself more paranoid than you should be because you know what it’s like to get the **** end.

March 18, 2011

Hey hun, I found your new diary and now I am back on open diary for good! I’m going to catch up on you cause for awhile you were moving with someone else and I lost track! And as far as your new endeavour..I use to worry about the same thing and I think you make yourself more paranoid than you should be because you know what it’s like to get the **** end.

March 19, 2011

I miss her.

March 19, 2011

I miss her.

March 19, 2011

RYN: a sexy email would be good especially an unexpected one. I agree with worried you are probably getting yourself too worked up. It usually happens when we start to really care for someone because we are afraid of loosing them.

March 19, 2011

RYN: a sexy email would be good especially an unexpected one. I agree with worried you are probably getting yourself too worked up. It usually happens when we start to really care for someone because we are afraid of loosing them.

March 20, 2011

I need to lighten up. She’s got some stressful things going on.

March 20, 2011

I need to lighten up. She’s got some stressful things going on.