all day I dream about food

I have pretty much reached my target weight yay! I am 5" 5" (and a half feet tall) and around 125 lbs now. Maybe a bit over that but pretty close. Now I just need to get some exercise in and tone up more. Someone said to me today "you look like you lost a lot of weight don’t lose more." I’m definitely not starving myself though.

I have just a bit for breakfast. I may add in a bit of protein in the future, possibly half an egg or a bit of oatmeal. I have a regular lunch, a frozen entree and a light dinner. I can have as much fruit or veggies as I want. I can eat whatever I want. If it is chocolate or junk food I just limit myself to a small portion. I still get to have coffee or as much tea as I crave. So it is something I know I can maintain for as long as I care to.

I have been doing this since October when I began to get sick. I didn’t crave that much food. Then I thought about how I really wasn’t happy with my weight. I felt dumpy and sluggish. So I decided to start doing portion control every night for dinner. Tomorrow I am going to the corporate christmas party. I am receiving a service award, so I thought why not. go.

I know there will be a high calorie dinner and lots of treats. So I will limit myself to water or coffee no juice. Half of whatever I want for dessert. And I am going to divide the food on my plate in half. It won’t seem right to ask for a takeout container because it is a staff event. So unfortunately the food will either go to waste or be given to Karl.

Yesterday one of the programs here was having a divine lunch. perogies, noodle salads, regular salad, sourkraut with sausage and bacon. I piled my plate high but took the rest to have tonight. And there was ice cream cake, yum!

Before it didn’t really seem in my mind that I had aproblem with food. If I wanted people I would buy some maybe a litre or 2 litre bottle. I would consume chips or crackers without even really thinking about how many I was eating. I was using to having this incredibly high metabilism when I was young. I could have whatever I wanted and stay skinny. I realize it isn’t like that now though.

I was annoyed with Karl because he does not realize how awesome Throwback pepsi is. Sure it still has lots of sugar. It isn’t high fructose corn syrup though! I really do believe that hfcs is addictive. I notice since I stopped drinking it I feel a bit more focused mentally.