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I’ll start out by saying, things could be worse, but I need a whining entry, just to vent, so please feel free to pass this one by!

I’m tired. All the time. I’m still iron deficient, and pregnant, and sleep deprived. It doesn’t help that I’m pretty sure I’m developing an infection, either in the kidneys or the urinary tract (have had them both before while pregnant, feels like this…blah).

I’m trying to sell things to 1. tidy house and 2. pay off credit card….and was frustrated because all the stupid rechargable batteries my husband insists on using have gone flat! “Don’t buy expensive batteries, these will work just fine!” Now I have no batteries at all, so not to be thwarted, I’m listing items on trademe with “picture to come”. Still annoying.

My Ella has figured out that if she throws up, she gets picked up and cleaned up and generally gets her way…so she is making herself throw up now. I’ve had to take a hard line with her, because I know she can stop it. When she starts coughing and I know she’s doing it on purpose, I tell her if she throws up, she’s getting a spanking and going to bed, so she had better stop. We haven’t yet had to resort to an actual spanking luckily. It’s still upsetting all around!

Ali is taking a cue from me and not doing anything around the house. It is a WRECK!! SO embarassing, his parents came over to visit yesterday with no notice, just a knock on the door. I was lounging reading a book, not feeling well and deciding to chill while the girls rampaged through the lounge. The first 10 minutes of them being here I was all sneakily (not so much) trying to tidy up! Ridiculous!! Anyway, I’m just feeling a lack of support. I feel like he doesn’t really “get” why I am so rundown, tired, depressed….so he just writes it off as me being lazy, so instead of helping and stepping up and doing a bit more to tidy up….he takes it as he doesn’t need to do anything because I’m not doing anything! Makes me cry.

Anyway, I’m gonna go tidy my lounge and drink cranberry juice. I’ve got a lady coming for a cake quote within a half hour, so must run!!

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