Why

Why the hell am i soo hooked on this guy for. I have never ever been like this before. I just want him back so badly yet he is bein a complete fucken jerk to me, Hes back with his ex which i think i mentioned twice last week they were in grocery shoppin an i swear he was rubbin it in my face cause he knows i work there. Then on sunday when i was at church he was at his brothers standin on the balcony starin at me, LIke what the fuck he doesnt want me but he can stand there an stare at me. I love him soo much its soo stupid.Last night i did something i shouldnt of done, i slept with this guy who is pretty much family to kris family no blood relation but they class him as family. Then i cryed myself to sleep cause i want trent back soo badly its soo stupid.I just wish i never met him now i really do.

Things have been ok other then that. Harry is still here cant wait for him to go home tho, i need my space if you know what i mean . He came with no money an i really cant afford to support him at the moment either. Soo it sucks anyway not much else to say

Novalee is well.

XOXO BEK XOXO