Bitch Fest !!

I really really need to get out of this house !! Im so sick of my parents telling me how to raise my daughter. My mum seriously just sits here all day telling me what to do. Hold her properly, dont do that to her you will hurt her. Wtf am i ??  I cant even play with her without her going off at me saying im not doing something right. I would never ever be rough with her to the extent that i would hurt her. My mum plays rougher with her then i do. She is seriously driving me nuts with the crap she goes on with. Im sick of her judging me an making out that im not fit to be a mother all the time. There so many reasons why i need to move out right now. My friends came round the other day an she got the shits with that, any time i want to go out shopping or something she gets really sarcastic. This morning on her way to work she said you better not be going anywhere. I said why not?? she said because you dont have a carseat an theres no way you are going to catch a taxi , over my dead body !! Wtf ?? My mum is soo jelouse of everything. If i have any type of social life she doesnt talk to me uno. All because she has no friends because her an dad are total hermets.  Whenever we plan to do anything like go out for dinner or anything we dont end up going because they are to tired or they cant be botherd getting ready. Any time they get invited to someones place for dinner or something they ring an cancel because they are to tired an they dont get invited again kinda thing.

Ever since we moved to Cairns they have mad absolutly no attempt to have any kind of social life at all. They have the attitude that everyone is out to get them an that every one is an arsehole. Drives me crazy. They would have to be the most boring people i have ever met in my life. All they do is sit here an talk about money an how much they have an how much they dont have an what bill they have to pay this week or whatever. Yea i understand that you know that kinda stuff is a big deal but there is no need to talk about  it 24/7. I dont think i have heard mum an dad have a convo about something without the word money in it for years an years.

So yea mum caught me smoking the other day. She knew i smoked before i was pregnant but i didnt know that i started smoking again after i have Novalee anyway i was out the back an mum was at work , she turned up while i was outside haven a smoke. I didnt try an hide it cause yea im over caring what she thinks right now. She went of her head at me. I said to her how fucken old am i ?? Im old enough to make my own descisions on if i want to smoke or not. She didnt talk to me for 2 days or so over it . I dont care tho. She cant really say much she use to smoke so yea. Shes like i hope you get lung cancer !!

Anyway sorry about that had to let some anger out lol. Im going to start looking for an apartment very soon. Well i found one i like but there are only a few left so i will have to look into it more. Ill show you …..

Ok stupid od wont let me paste the links so after i save this hopefully i will be able to edit it an show you all.

Novalee is doing really well. She is soo cheeky lol . I love her so much an i dont know what i would do without her in my life seriously . I went to her rellies on the weekend an she was happy until her father turned up an then she started screaming she was so upset an he was being an arsehole about it all arrgggh . Poor darling.

Anyway she is awake so i better go change her bum an feed her. I will edit this later an post a heap of pics i have