And Now I Lay Me Down to Sleep…

Only 10:00pm and my eyelids grow weary. Another evening comes to a close with the realization that I’m poor, fat, unhealthy, and unhappy.

Or so it seems.

I made a change today, it’s a silent one, but one all the same. For the better I hope, however unreachable it is, having made similar vows in years past, and still ending at the same conclusion.

There is a candle in my window of darkness that glows bright for me. The light comes in the form of my new husband, and the only happiness to touch my bleak outlook of late. On the other hand, perhaps his depression is contagious.

Here comes the Long December…

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December 2, 2002

too bloody right

“The smell of hospitals in winterAnd the feeling that it’s all a lot of oysters, but no pearlsAll at once you look across a crowded roomto see the way that light attaches to a girl…”

December 3, 2002

Congratulations and good luck.

December 4, 2002

Aye, december…

December 9, 2002

it’s only contagious if I get it first…. have a little faith baby…!

The promise of faith will overrule any curse or depression…he’s right. Have faith…the dawn comes…the spring is around the corner…and the Long December won’t last as long as you may believe. *places a hurricane glass around the candle, leaving a plate of jack daniel’s chicken strips from TGIF on the table for when you get to it, wandering off whistling Uncle Kracker*