Shit Shit Fuck Fuck Oh My Gahd

The title… that’s pretty much all that’s going through my head and has been for the past few weeks. I have the devil’s exam on Monday. I’m petrified. There is so much money riding on passing this exam. I don’t give a shit what mark I get..I just want to pass. If it’s only by one mark, that’s fine. I just want to pass. If I don’t…I have no idea what I can do. It’s over £400 I’ve spent on this now.

The rest is written for me…noone else will know what I’m on about lol.

Focimetry – I think I have that nailed. It should be fine. Maybe be a degree or 2 out. Tolerance is 2.5 degrees. Just have to hope they have the type of focimeter I’m used to.

Hand Neutralisation – feeling more confident after today. Yesterday I fucking sucked at it and couldn’t get things close. Today I think I’ve got good enough. I’m not good but I think I might scrape through on it. Today I’ve been between 1 and 8 degrees out. Got it spot on once. Tolerance is 5degrees. Every power has been either spot on or 0.25 out. Tolerance is 0.25. So I think I might get more marks on that than I thought. But it’s still one of my weakest points.

Lens Measure – easy marks. I should be fine with that. Just have to watch my calculations when I’m taking into account the faults in the lens measure.

Facial Measurements – I haven’t done much practice. Should be doing that tonight with Alex and Jamie (jamie’s acting as our patient hehe)

Frame measurements – haven’t done much practice but That should be easy to practice…even if I do it on the way on the train there. Maybe I will do some tonight though.

Frame Adjustments – I haven’t had much practice because my lecturer is shit. It should be ok though. Plastic adjustments I can do by hand. Metal adjustments I know how to use the majority of the tools we’re given but I do it most by hand anyway. There are few problems with frames that I don’t know how to put right but I’m not looking for top marks on this section coz i’ve had hardly any practice anyway. Need to revise the proper explanations of use of tools. Have to remember to ‘act professional’ when fitting my patient. Barely touch rimless pair because never given one to practice on and instant fail on this section if you break the lens (which is easy to do). Will probably only adjust sides.

Frame descriptions – half should be ok if I go through the simple things…the other half I’m screwed. Have no idea how to tell what type of metal or plastic the frames are. I don’t really care. In practice it will say on the friggin order form so does it really matter?? But have lots of info to revise from so I should feel a little more confident by the exam. Need to learn contruction terms.

viva – fuck. This SHOULDN’T worry me. I know my optics stuff. I do. But I’m going to be nervous being one on one with an examiner. I’m going to worry and not be able to concentrate and fuck it up. Shall revise lots for this tonight and tomorrow. I just need to calm myself down before it.

Shit fuck shit fuck shit.

2 days to go. I’m worried. Very worried. Spent all day yesterday crying. It wasted a day of revision but I think I got it out of my system a little because I’ve calmed down today. I’ll probably be a wreck again by tonight.

Fuck.

– Lon x

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