2/21/07

I’m feeling pretty good recently. Thing’s seem to be OK.

Me and Jamie have been spending a lot of time together and Jamie is good for me. We absolutely understand each other (and are open and honest enough with eachother to admit this) and we just talk and chat about everything. We can go from mucking and joking around to serious heartfelt conversations very quickly and just skip back again straight after. we both give eachother very honest advice because we both know the other wont take offence by it. He knows a hell of a lot about me and I know pretty much everything about him. We can sit and chat for hours and we never leave it until we’re both feeling good. The other night 6 of us went out for drinks. Howard left early. Then Ellie. Then Laura and Nicole. Me and Jamie stayed just talking until closing time then came to my room and sat there until about 3.30am. We both had a few tears throughout the conversation but we were both feeling good by the time I walked him downstairs to have a goodnight cigarette with him.

On that note, I am a bad influence on him. I make him smoke so so so so much more. I smoke roughly 20 a day. He bought a pack of 20 on the way to the pub (which we only stayed in for one drink) last night. It is 7 pm now and he has none left and had to go and buy another packet…so roughly 20 in 24 hours. oops. sorry.

Last night was fun with jamie. It was Shrove Tuesday. So…we made pancakes when we got back from the pub. I have a few photos but I dont have my lead to connect my phone to my laptop. Jamie insisted on making a smiley face on his pancake (or making Pancake Man) with squirty cream. I had cherries and lemon and sugar and squirty cream. It was, as Jamie said “Heaven in a bowl” or “…plate” (as I corrected him)

awww, I wanna post a picture of my baby Jamie now…

This entry wasn’t meant to be about Jamie.

He’s coming to my kitchen round about now (where I’m sitting) to do some work before we go back to the Tram Depot.

Oh and also, we’ve made friends with the guy behind the bar at the Tram Depot. Andrew. He’s really cool and comes to sit with us when he’s got noone to serve and gives me free pineapple juice and a double when i pay for a single (and their measures are 35ml anyway). Jamie got his number and we see him every day when he’s at work but we’re gonna invite him out when he’s not working for a drink or two. This isn’t just me and Jamie by the way – it’s Ellie and Laura and Nicole too. (us 5 are living together next year)

Anyway, I’ve had a lot of alcohol over the past few days, loads of talks with Jamie and things are happy. Nicole started her new job today and she seems to think it’s gonna be ok so that’s good too. Laura’s got a bit of a cold but she seems happy enough. Ellie’s got a few problems right now but she came to the Laughter Lounge (my uni’s comedy night) with us and had a laugh (we’re trying to get to know her better now that we’re all deffo living together next year).

And, most importantly, I love Jordan.

Lauren xxx