random rambles about my day

hmmm what’s happened today?

Laura (kitchen mate) and Jamie (guy on Laura’s course who has become part of our friendship group) have made it official today. They are a couple. She is SO happy and smily and giggly. It’s lovely. But fucking annoying when I can’t have Jordan here to make me all happy and smiley and giggley and girly. Jordan, come home…

I burnt myself. I’m good at that. I think it’ll leave a scar. It normally does when I burn myself. I was getting something out of the oven for someone and the door swung back and hit my arm and I now have a lovely line of red where it caught me. It’ll probably turn into a light scar. And it’s right over my favourite beauty spots (I like them because I have the same pattern on my forearm and on my thigh.

My new piercing has gone a little weird. It’s healing but differently to how all my others have. Today it’s better. It’s a lot looser and I think it’s stopping with all the gunky crap. I think it’ll be better soon. It’s taken a lot lot lot more time to stop being sore though. I can’t sleep on it still and it’s been…erm…17th November it was. It never takes that long to heal. Weird. I guess it does go through a hell of a lot of cartilage though so it would take longer to heal but *shrugs*.

I’m missing Jordan. He had his first day of jury service today. I want him to come back. I’m terrible without him.

I have tomorrow planned. I’m going home in the morning. Going to my nan and grandads and waiting for them to get back from my grandad’s hospital appointment. It’s his checkup from the last time he was in hospital (you know…you have to go 6 weeks after you leave hospital…or maybe you don’t know and I spend too much time with people in hospital). I’m worried about what they’re going to say because he’s really really not well at all. He *is* going to die soon. I’m dreading it. It hurts to think about it but I can’t get it off my mind. I miss him so much and it’s horrible that I’ve spent so much time away from him recently. I need to go back home. I wish I had never come to uni. I’m missing out on so much stuff back home. I miss my family terribly even if i don’t get on with them…

I still can’t eat. It’s weird. I want to but I’im not hungry/don’t have the energy to cook/don’t have the money to get takeout.

I still can’t sleep…I mean right now it’s 5.07am. I keep telling myself that I’ve stayed up to work but I’m not doing anything. I’ve just spent 2 hours going through my itunes with George and finding out we have exactly the same taste in music. There was a lot of The Clash and The Thrills and Paul Weller played.

Laura is sitting across from me doing work (she’s got into the habit of not sleeping too) and she’s getting stressed out because it’s drawing a storyboard (film student) and she isn’t the greatest drawer. Bless her.

I think I should go to bed now…I need to get up pretty early.

Lauren xx