11/19/06 (editted)

Man I’m homesick.

I went back home this weekend for Emily’s (one of my best mates) birthday. I took Nicole (my best uni mate) back with me so she could meet my friends and see my home town. Had a wicked night. Met up with loadsa mates from home. was great to see loads of the people who were about. Emily, Rachel Stevens, Ella, Jack G, Tom R, Joe P were the main people around me. And Johnny. Ginger Johnny who I last spoke to just before my 18th birthday party. Weird.

Anyway, we were in the club and I was talking to Nikki and I glanced over to the dance floor. Ella, Rach and Emily were dancing and laughing and looking so happy. It just really hit me how much I miss them…how much I love them. Fuck I miss them.

Good thing though – Jordan is sticking around. Even if he wont write about it I will. He’s got a new job in London and things are good because he’s not disappearing back to Wales.Not that we wouldn’t’ve coped if he had but it’s just a hell of a lot nicer knowing he’s close and staying close.

I’ve had a LOT of thoughts about cutting. I started to cut but only have a few little scratches. I talked to Jordan about it and I think he understands a little more now. I may just need to have a few weeks cutting and then I can stop again. I know that sound slike I’m starting again and I can’t be assed to convince everyone reading this that I’m not starting again but…believe me, this is a temporary thing and if Jordan understands and believes me…I’m not just saying it, right?

blah. just blah.

Lauren

EDIT: in other news I got a new piercing. My rook of my right ear. Some say piercings and tattoos are a form of self harm right? I’ve been wondering. When I need to self harm more I seem to get even more enthusaistic about piercings

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Wow nice pericing. I know how you feel it takes time but it gets easyer. I’ve got so many scars, and tattoos and percings but there aren’t many people that understand, and if you have one that does don’t let them go.

Wow nice pericing. I know how you feel it takes time but it gets easyer. I’ve got so many scars, and tattoos and percings but there aren’t many people that understand, and if you have one that does don’t let them go.