Pointless new years resolution and homework moans

I’ve not really had a lot of time to comeon recently. i am MAJORLY behind with my work. i have just been getting SO much – one hours work from each lesson. 4 lessons a day 5 days a week. That’s 20 hours homework a week. i dont know how they expect me to do it! i knwo im taking one extra subject but that’s only 4 extra lessons a week. I would have 16 hours if i didnt do english lit. it’s ridiculous. i have to hand in my biology folder tomorrow for one of my teachers to check we are all writing up our notes (oh i forgot to say on top of our homework we have to write up all of our notes in neat for each subject which takes about 30 mins for eachlesson…that makes it 30 hours a week I’m supposed to do.  My 6th form head took our tutorial today. he asked how much time (honestly) we spent doing our homework each night excluding weekends…well taht made me look really bad…i had to go for the 30 mins – an hour slot. i do my work at weekend *whispers* and just before school and during break time

I really do need to get my ass in gear and keeps my notes up to date and do my homework and actually try. a friend said to me today “have you actually done a bit of physics homework without copying from someone else?” i honestly couldnt think of a bit that i had done… but, this is all a bit like those pointless new years resolutions. You always say “im gonna lose weight” “im gonna eat healthily” “im gonna do all my homework” “im not going to argue with my family”  but, what is the point? you knwo full well tahtit’s never going to happen. it will last for about a week and then you’ll ust go back to your old ways and not do it.

I’ve told myself that over the half term (which starts Thurs) im going to catch up with everything and get everything done. i havent got a lot of work in teh holidays so i will have time but i knwo im not going to. it’ll be…”ill do it tomorrow” or “ill do it after this program” but…i really do want to try. i was thinking about writing a timetable but…i knwo i wont keep to it.

*sigh* anyone got any ideas of how i can get the motivation to pull my socks up??

All my love, Purple Eyeshadow… x