What do I have to do?

Wellity wellity wellity. OD. I’ve been ignoring OD for a bit. Not because I’m going through a no OD phase but I’ve just not felt chatty at all and I need to be to know what to write. I have no idea what to write so that kinda shows how unchatty I’m still feeling.

I cried yesterday at work. Oh man. I do not cry at work. And over a customer. I’m tired and I’m stressed out and then I get a customer come in and I do everything I can to help her. I offer to break rules and it even gets to the point where I am saying ‘Let me ring head office and explain the situation and see what they allow me to do’ and that is returned with “This town is a shit hole. Debenhams is stupid. Norwich are brillint. Why can’t you be like the staff there? They did so much to help. Quite frankly you’re just crap”. If her husband hadn’t been standing there and actually listening to what I was saying I might’ve hit her.

I should’ve walked away. I don’t have to serve anyone who insults me but I don’t have the guts to do that. Her husband got so annoyed with her that he said “Oh for fucks’ sake!” and I wanted to hug him. I guess I just got so frustrated that I cried. Jane came back from her lunch about 20 minutes later and sent me on an extra long lunch because she could see I was still upset.

When I came back from my lunch the woman was standing with Jane. She had returned. Jane was serving her so I span on my heels and walked in the opposite direction. I wanted nothing to do with her. Apparently Jane had told her she upset me and said “there’s no need to be rude” and all she replied with was “well, she wasn’t much help”. She did look a little guilty when I came back and she spotted me though. Oh and her husband wasn’t with her…did he get so annoyed he wanted nothing to do with it either? I hope so. It’s a suit! Just clothes. Just a piece of material. Does it really matter that much?

I’ve been so tired recently. Everything is just stressing me out. I guess it’s all the uni stuff on top of it. Filling out a million and one forms. Had a million and one hours overtime this week. Trying to look after my mum. Doing most of the housework. Organising days out with friends for birthdays and saying goodbye etc etc. Oh and trying to sort out stuff for my mum’s birthday. Shit. Present. Haven’t sorted that. And I need to go find a present for my cousin’s 2 year old (birthday 31st Aug) . Got presents for the baby that’s due 30th Aug (wouldn’t you hate to have your birthday near your siblings?). Need to get my laptop fixed before I go to uni but that’s going to cost me £100. Could take it out of my savings but I lent Josh £1533.30 out of my savings Wednesday and I paid my deposit and my spending money out of that savings account too and it’s slowly going down. Will be relieved when Josh gives me the money back. I need to get some more washing done. I need to go buy a few more things. I need to finish filling out a million and one forms and get some passport photos taken for my Student ID card and for my application for the register of dispensing opticians.I need to I need to completely empty my bedroom. I started sorting through everything but I need to get rid of EVERYTHING. While I’m at uni apparently there are plan to recarpet/floor my bedroom, replaster and put up a new ceiling. It does need doing but I don’t want it done yet…oh and I have a million and one other things to do.

Jordan. His job stuff seems positive right now. Second trial day at a possible new job. All seems positive apparently and he seemed happy enough when talking about it.

My brother has disappeared to Reading festival. Nice of him. Hope it pours (which it’s going to haha)

This is all rather long.

Lauren x