Caroline’s party, headboy/girl

Well I figured I should write an entry. I’ve been avoiding the internet. I’m feeling pretty down today though. I’m not really sure why. I’ve been in a real bitchy mood, being horrible about everyone in my bitching sessions with Zoe. I know I’m doing it but it’s just a way to calm myself down and make myself laugh as we joke about other peoples misfortunes. But, it’s only between me and Zoe and occasionally Josh so it doesn’t really matter right? Well…OK I was pretty harsh to Joanne today. Three rather stuckup people…OK…one stuck up person and two just a little bit posh people who are actually nice but a little irritating are having a party Saturday for their 18th. Johnny Joanne and Caroline. They had the ‘genius’ idea of making it a black and white party. This, at first, seemed like a cool idea. Everyone dressed in smart black and white clothes. cool eh? no. They are getting everyone to wear black and white so that they can wear bright colours and be the centre of attention. Now, at my party i wore jeans black top and black stilettos with blue jewellery. Zoe, at her party, wore the same sorts of clothes she would wear to other peoples parties. They are that insecure that…urgh…ok you get that point. The black and white theme is really getting on my brain. Zoe said to Joanne today "I have a black waistcoat with some grey in it, I’m thinking about wearing that to your party" Joanne said she had better ask the other two if that was ok. After my hour bitching session about caroline and her party I was in a stress and said "oh for fucks sake! Grey is black and white mixed together!! Fuck it Zoe, let’s go somewhere else Saturday night I don’t wanna go to their stuck up party" They didn’t even invite Josh. They are all friends with him. Josh gets drunk at parties. He’s not sick, he doesn’t start fights or anything like that. Josh is a slightly annoying but rathr hilarious drunk and Caroline didn’t want him there because it’s a posh do apparently. The other day I said to Johnny (who I’m good friends with) that I didn’t think I was going to go because I didn’t want to leave Josh at home on his own. How horrible would it be to think that he wasn’t invited to his friends party and everyone else was there? Johnny had the cheek to say that they were checking the lists and perhaps Josh would be able to go. That got me stressed. I was like "Fuck off! How insulting to Josh! If I were him I’d rather not be invited than on the reserve list!" As if that 3 are so popular that so many people want to go to their stupid party. I REALLY hope noone goes. Me Zoe Josh and Roxanne are going out for a meal instead. And then probably back to mine because my parents are away. Me and Zoe were talking and I was like  perhaps we should go to our meal dressed in black and white, turn up late (with Josh and Roxy) then say in front of them that their party is shit and should we go back to mine. OK, I know, I’m a bitch but how funny to see Caroline’s face. Man, I hate her. She found out she didn’t get headgirl Monday. Monday was her birthday. haha. sorry…harsh but haha. She acted like it was a sure thing and was getting all het up about it and everyone even her best mates were bitching about her for it. I was so pleased she didn’t get it. Hubbard didn’t get it either. The ‘popular’ girl running for it got it. I don’t mind her..I don’t really know her. The boy they chose for headboy was the worst choice. He is so disorganised it is unbelievable. One of the boys (Gordon) was too shy to make a speech. The other boy was perfect. I guess I’m biased because I’m friends with him but I’m friends with Gordon too. But Matthew is just the perfect person to be headboy. But…his dad is a deputy head of 6th form. *shrugs* I think it’s unfair. That’s probably not a main reason but I’m sure it was considered that if Matthew got it it would have been thought that it was fixed or at least influenced by his dad and the fact that the teachers know Matthew quite well because of his dad. I don’t know.

OK, OK, moan and ramble over. I left in in one big chunk because it’s not really an entry.. it was just me rambling. Took me about 4 minutes. I’ll shut up now.

-Lauren xx