Deaths hurt. And not just those in the accident.

Yeah.

Spoke to Steve. A close friend of his was killed in a car crash 2 days ago.

He had a 4 year old son.

and it wasnt his fault.

he was an ambulance driver.

THIS IS WHY I WILL NOT DRIVE!!

why the fuck to all the kindest people get killed?

Sarah was the sweetest girl.

never left the house without telling her parents she loved them.

and then she was killed in a car accident at 18.

her bro, my cousin, is a professional racing driver.

she went to all his races

at her funeral it was said by her dad she was his biggest fan

then she was killed.

and this guy…Steve’s friend…Glenn…drove ambulances

irony eh?

had another arguement with parents tonight coz they want me to drive.

what a night to argue about that

while one of my close friends is at home sobbing coz he just lost his friend to a car crash

christ i wish he didnt live millions of miles away.

i love him so much

and i care so much

but he wont let me help him

he says his friends didnt know him and dont understabd

they wanted him to go out and cheer himself up but he wanted to be alone

FUCKING HELL!!

i understand. sarah was killed 5th dec 2002.

i knwo it takes a long time to get over things.

i know he needs people around him

but i know how stubborn he is

and i understand why hes saying he doesnt need anyones help…

but…

its so frustrating,

i just wanna be there for him

 

i guess i fucked things up between us though

it was me that made up not speak for 2 years

my fault.

i cant expect him to just immediately trust me again

though he says he does…