01/22/2013

We’re healing.

Yesterday we made it past the cheetah exhibit at the zoo without tears.  It’s progress.

Even so, I yearn to stop at Petco and hold some furry babies, but alas I know nothing good would come of it.

My exercise has been my best way of taking my mind off my stresses and depressants.  My legs are becoming more defined the more I jog.  This is a ‘thing’ for me.  I have short legs.  I will never be ‘leggy’, and I know this…but that does not mean I can’t make them look sexy!  I’ve set a goal, and not an unrealisitic one.  When I’m content with my shape, I will treat myself to a pretty little black dress and heels.

I deserve this.

And so, I continue.  I move forward.  I heal, I develop.  I morph.  I heal the outside while God molds the inside.  My two favorite men are on this journey with me, pushing me forward.  It’s not going to be easy, and there are going to be days I fight it.  I NEED t be healthier.  I WANT to be stronger.  I DESIRE to feel beautiful.  I DESERVE to accomplish what I set my mind to.  That being said, I’m in week 2 of Couch to 5K.  I will do a 5K this year.

I never would have said any of this a year ago, not even 6 months ago.  I’ve made progress.  2013 is off to a good start.