Dammit!!!

 Seems like every single time I turn around something else has to come along to piss on me!!!

My doctor’s office called this morning.  My cholesterol is still too high.  I was put on a low dose Statin drug a few months ago – against my will – and it has done NOTHING to lower my LDL.  Oh, but the side effects worked just fine!  My muscle pain has gotten a whole lot worse!!

Dammit!  I knew this would happen!  I want to try the Red Yeast Rice for three months to see if it works better – BECAUSE IT DOESN’T HAVE HARMFUL SIDE EFFECTS!!!  But, I doubt my doctor will be willing to let me try it.  

What’s worse, I was told my platelets are real low, too.  What the heck?  What is causing that?  The meds?  A new illness? Can Fibromyalgia cause it?   I don’t know and no one will tell me until I see the doctor in TWO WEEKS!!!

I Googled it – something I probably shouldn’t have done – and the first thing that pops up on the screen is LEUKEMIA, LUPUS AND HIV!!!  

Of course I’m scared to death, now!!  I DON’T NEED THIS!!!!!!

With this news, I doubt very much that my new Vascular Dr. will be willing to do the Ablation Surgery on my legs, too!  

Some days I just want to crawl into a damn hole and stay there!!!!