New Diary

Hey there…….

So those that have been reading me for awhile that i have contacted this is my new diary, formly known as menrjerks lol.  I had to delete that diary and start a whole new one due to my other one being corrupted.  I’m kind of glad, because things have been rough for me lately and i feel like this is a whole new start, and that is what i need right now.  I have been feeling very stuck lately in my life and don’t really know where to go from here.  I mean, i know that i am a pretty awesome young woman, and i have a lot of potential and feel like i will only continue to excel in my life, but i’m bored.  I’m bored with the way my life is going right now, i am stressed out over money all the time, i’m scared and nervous to go back to school, afraid i can’t do it, afraid to move on from the comfortable postion i’m in now, tired of meeting the dead end assholes that call themselves men, and i’m tired of holding myself back from doing all the things i want to do.

I mean i know to a point my weight stops me from doing some of the things i want to do.  I’m pretty big, but i’m taking care of that.  I really want to go and tour Europe for a month and i can’t wait until the opportunity to do that comes up, which i will be doing sometime in the next year or so.  I’m done waiting, because life doesn’t wait for u, it keeps going and i think the longer i wait the more i won’t do the things i want to do.  i like adventure and being spontanious and that has been lacking in my life lately.

Anyway i intend to start writing a lot more then i did before.  I’m also going to be writing about my weightloss, which is going to be quite the epic adventure lol.

Will write soon…………