Hundred-Twenty-Seven: Honesty

Entry For NOJOMO #7

Out in the Open

Told From Kaden’s POV

I observed Zeke and Tanya together. They seemed so happy. I never seen my brother try so hard at life. We are so old and have gone to many schools before, but I never knew how much he cares about academics. Why purpose can getting good merits benefits get us? I am not sure…unless he’s trying to be a prefect. It seems he has more drive in life these days. Then there is Tanya, whom I don’t know to feel sorry for or be mad at. She uses a lot of lies and deception in her life, at least hides things from the people she is supposed to love the most.

It is as if she is trapped inside her childhood, because she acts so impulsive. That has to be the only explanation. Periwinkle said something like that so it must be true. I wish there was something she could do to get fixed. She’d be better off if she did.

I noticed she has trouble with letting people go as well. She may have abandonment issues she needs to address. Her best-friend Colin has been in and out of her life, and the poor guy has endured more verbal pain from her than anyone I know…yet he always sticks around. I think that he, too, understands her pain. He knows that she doesn’t mean it either. They really are meant to be in one another’s lives. Harry has stood by her side through things as well but unlike Colin, he isn’t as easy to forgive her. Maybe somewhere in there, he thinks he deserves this. It does nothing but distract him. When things are good between them, they’re wonderful but when they’re horrible….it’s like fire and ice.

Then there is my brother. Tanya seems to really love him, but then again, she has seemed that way to the other people I mentioned. I think Zeke is good for her. He isn’t as unstable as Harry or as a push-over like Colin but in order for this to work, she needs to be honest with him. I thought about telling him. I mean he is my brother and the only family I have left but it isn’t my place to. Besides, I have more important things to worry about right now like Ms. Diggory who seems to be falling into a deep depression.

Told From Ordinary POV

Zeke and I sat around the Ravenclaw Commonroom reading his essay about when he couldn’t use magic. It was about back in the 18th century when witch burnings was going on. He and Kaden were afraid of using their magic for a long time and learned how to colonize with the muggles in Norway. Apparently during those times, vampires were also being hunted so they had to hide themselves and travel a lot. They had to wear a lot of layers of clothes to try to warm their bodies up but it didn’t work most of the time. Most of their family died during this time. It was a really interesting story.

I looked at him as he grinned at me. I looked deep into his eyes and realized that I needed to make a confession to him. I sighed heavily.

“Zeke, I have to tell you something.”

“Okay…..what?” I could already tell his paranoia was setting in. Piastol and Celesi were on the other side of the room and giggling. I looked over and glared at them as they took the hint and left.

“When you were gone to assist Kaden, I had a thing going on that I shouldn’t have. I um…well I was lonely and I had a hard time dealing with your death to only watch you leave again.” I kept going but Zeke hurried me along.

“And you were with Harry?” He questioned in a calm voice. “Tanya, I already knew all of this. It was very obvious. I mean you two seem to always have something going on. I’ve tried to ignore this the best I could until you were ready to tell me. I talked to him the other day and the way he was acting around me only confirmed my suspicious. Just please tell me its over now,” He begged.

“It’s over.” I looked at him very surprised. “Only you belong in my life.”

Zeke seemed to be confused and I don’t blame him. “I am not going to leave you for this, Tanya, but if it ever happens again I’ll have no choice. I understand you were in a state of….psychotic tendencies, no offense. It’s okay.” He put his arm around me. “I can’t say I’m even surprised. Harry has been here years longer than me and he’s the hero. I’m the villain…People think we use dark magic but we don’t.

“You’re never a villain though, Zeke or even Kaden. You’re both really smart, nice, and the Wizarding World can use you. I know it.” I hugged up to him. “Harry is a hero, yes, but he’d be nothing without all the help he gets.” I pointed out. “He never does anything by himself. He’s like a shield and distraction against Voldermort.”

Zeke and I hugged up to each other without saying a word. We both were lost in our thoughts deeply. I think that I, Tanya Faith Delacour, have found the person I want to spend my life.