One-Hundred-Twelve: He Runs, She Walks Behind

He Seeks, She Hides
He’s running and she’s walking behind.
He’s trying but he’s last in her line.
His love’s dying but he keeps on trying
He lives in fear with a love that’s clear
He’s got a love he needs to give
but she’s afraid to let him in.

I was still gleeming from my Potions success. I wanted to celebrate what was left of my day. Of course that would have to be after studying because many more midterms would be throughout the week. Nonetheless, it would happen if it would be tonight. There is no way that Zeke would allow me to skip classes. However, I did have a way of making time go faster in them: sleeping. I used to that so much in class. I’ll have to use that tactic once more.

Six Hours Later

I felt refreshed and ready to party. I hurried to my dorm and put my favorite dress, and greeted Zeke with a sultry smile. “So I was thinking tonight…you and me could…ya know; go out on the town for awhile.” I grabbed his tie and pulled him closer.

“You do look….extra sexy right now but I think I may have a take a nap.” Zeke yawned. “All of these classes drain me. At the end of the day, I need to take a nap. In a few hours though, I’m game.” He gave me a smile I couldn’t resist but kiss.

“Deal.” I said. I could sense how tired he was. I didn’t want to argue with him. I laid down with him until he fell asleep then it was time for me to socialize. It’s something I haven’t been able to do lately. I walked out of the Ravenclaw Commonroom and back to the corridors. The men stared at me as I made my way. Jazmine was nearby, but they weren’t paying her any attention. I don’t think she is as in tune with her seduction like Ia am. I don’t even think Alana is. Maybe they don’t like to use it. They want people to like them for who they are. I do as well but I mean if you got it, flaunt it.

“Tanya, it’s nice to zee you! I was zo worried that zou needed to be sent away. Truth be told, grandmum zent me here. You’re fine. When I firzt got here, I zhought different but now I can tell grandmum a good report!” She gave me a hug and I patted her awkwardly. “Good to zee you. Your friend Colin iz zo sweet!” She leaned toward me. “He kizzed me yesterday.”

I gasped. “He did? Seriously? You wasn’t dreaming?” I asked, half-way laughing.

‘You’re zo humurous!” She squealed. She leaned in once again to whisper “He’s a good kizzer too if you ask myself!” I wanted to claw her eyes out. Did she not know about my and Colin’s past. “I know he’z your best friend. If we ever get married, he will be in the family and you can zee him all the time! That of courze will ze a long time away.”

I sighed deep into my chest. I seriously was getting tense. “Well congratulations, Jazmo.” I teased her. Oh the joyful nicknames of childhood. “I have to go now.” I hurried away. If I had to listen to her french accent anymore, she’d be at the bottom of the lake. I had to find Colin, and luckily, he was just around the corner.

“Have you seen Jazmine?” He asked me.

“Colin, I have to talk to you!” I pulled him into Filch’s broom closet. “I have to ask you this: What the bloody hell are you doing with Jazmine?! She isn’t right for you. He’s boring, an over-achiever…”

He gave me a confused look. “No she isn’t. We have so much in common. We’re both Gryffindors, love photography. You know when I take her picture, she doesn’t have beaded bird eyes like yours because she’s only half veela. That means I have no major secret to hide. Besides, quite frankly, you haven’t talked to me in forever.”

I gasped. “Colin, we’re best friends. You know that! We always will be. You know how I feel about Jazmine though. She has to go!”

He giggled. “You can’t rule my life. I like her. I admit it, she’ll never replace what I felt for you. Nobody ever will but I know we’ll never be. I don’t want you to stick the dagger any further. You don’t want me but don’t want anyboy else to have me either? Tanya, I know. Jazmine is your cousin who is the polar opposite at you. However, that is why she appeals to me. That is all. Goodbye.” Colin twisted the dooknob and left me in there.

“Jerk!” I mentally told him.

“Selfish!” He screamed back.

To her world with no together
She can’t see him in her picture
She wants love but her heart won’t let her let him in
He’s walking behind
He’s walking behind.

I stomped out of the broom closet and pulled my dress up. I wasn’t going to let my encounter with Colin ruin my day. I walked down the hallway as everyone cleared the room. I’m not sure if they could feel the fire in my eyes or the ice on my lips, but it was just like old times. The boys were looking and the girls were sneering.

“Hey Harry.” I said pulling on his tie.

“Tanya, please don’t touch me that way.” Harry pushed me gently away. I laughed.

“Just greeting you. Come on Harry, not that much has changed between us. I don’t understand why you are pushing me away.” I was trying my best to smitten him with my veela but it never worked. I had to try extra hard ths time. I bit my lip.

:”No Tanya, really. I have to meet Hermione before Quidditch practice soon. I don’t have time for this today. I loved you, I really did. I don’t think you understand. We have a friendship. We somehow ended up…being more. I can’t stand to look at you. It sends pain through me to the point not even Voldermort can compare to. I have to go.” Harry slung my hands off his tie again.

“Do you now? Come on Harry.” I grabbed ahold of his hands and placed them on my waist. Then it hit me all of a sudden. I should

n’t have to seduce someone to like me. “Just go! I think I know about that pain you’re talking. I’ll miss you in my life but this is for the best. I’m going to find Zeke. I shouldn’t be here.” I fought back tears as I stood straight up, shoulders back and began going away. Harry grabbed my arm.

“I’m glad you let me go because I let you go a long time ago. I want it all or nothing.”

“I can’t give that to you. My heart belongs to Zeke.” I said tensing up.

“Goodbye.” He dropped my arm like a hot potato. He leaned in and gave me a kiss on the lips. I immediently pulled away looking at him while he did it again. I stood paralyzed. My heart was at a crossroad. I was feeling sparks fly but my mind was concentrating on Zeke. I smacked him across the face though I didn’t want to.

“Don’t ever do that again!” I couldn’t fight back the tears. Suddenly, I fell in his arms as we also retreated to Filch’s broom closet. “This can’t be, Harry. I have Zeke; you Hermione.”

“They don’t have to know.” Harry winked at me. I am now left with the question: did my veela finally work on him, or does he mean this. He kissed me again. “Invisability cloak?”

I sighed. I couldn’t turn him down. “Okay….”