Something is changing

 They say the universe moves all the time, we change our energies change from each second to the other,,,We are always evolving, changing…its been such a time in my life where so many bad and good things happened at the exakt same time…how can this be? Its like Jin and Jang, the black and the white…I lost someone I loved in a way I wish not my enemy to experience,,,at the same time I became the person I wanted to be..I changed from an insecure,scared and clingy person who wanted to do everything for everyone to a woman who loved herself and took no crap from anyone…in a nice way…

I got hurt in a way I thaught I would hate but instead I started to love…I was confused and unstable , became focused and stable…Is this how life gives us that which we need to find ourselves…yes probably…I looked for answers about my back problems for 12 years , they came as a blessing in a hipreplacement operation this may,,,,.one door closes the other opens…its the law..its how life works,,

I have no hate for those who hurt me, I have no fear for the operation in front of me and I know now who I am and where I am going. I am happy I have loved someone (and still do) so deeply…I would not change this for anything…even if he may never come back its fine that too…I wish him love and freedom to find his way, as I have..We all have our time and place…I have learned how to accept and not judge..I see small things in life which make me happy to be alive..I will never spent my time on hurting someone or being fake…rather alone than unhappy..my time means everything…I wish everyone would one day find the answers they need to be content…life is so wonderful and we are so blessed to have been given a chance to live….