Pandora’s box

Pandora’s box… Looking around to make sure no one was watching, she opened the box Zeus had given them just a crack. As Pandora did so, ghostly forms gushed forth from the crack. Pandora had unleashed all the evils now known to man. No longer could man loll about all day, but he would have to work and would succumb to illnesses.

At the very bottom of the container was the last thing to come out. It was something that wasn’t evil. We call the good that Pandora unleashed by the name of hope.

This is the story that sums upp my life these last two years….So much pain and sorrow, lies and promises..hopes and failiure…All these things I have caused myself–just came upon me like all the evils in the world were coming to me…I never could understand why this was happening…All I wanted was to love a man I felt was the one I wanted to be old with..have a child with and love him forever…I never got to experience this…the opposite came true…I blamed him for all my pain…all the lies and failures…But in truth I let this come to me because I never believed in myself worth and who i was..I valued him but never mself…I opened the Pandoras box and let the evil in …BUT what I never saw was the last thing that came out of the box….It was hope…I never lost hope…not one minute not one second did I lose hope in me and my life,,,,I have forgiven him , which does not make it right,,but its ok and its a blessing in this box that came out in evil but took with it hope and such harmony…One day maybe the man I meet will love me how I deserve to be loved and wish to be loved…I thank the Universe every day for my life…I see people in a new light, without judgement and jealousy or anger…I respect them and share my love with those who I chose to with,,,I miss him so much, words cannot describe, and I often wonder if he has forgotten me or things about me at times…i dreamed about him last night…but the dreams are no longer sad or terrible..they are calm and he is nice in my dreams…I have stopped waking upp with pain in my heart..I am healing..time has become my friend…I still love him deeply and maybe always will…but I have learned to let go and move on…I don’t know what the future will bring but I am blessed to be me….and I am blessed to have loved Manne…..