32 weeks 5 days

There’s this girl who I follow on Tumblr who is pretty cool, but she recently hit 35 weeks pregnant and has been driving me crazy ever since discussing what "natural" induction methods she’s going to start attempting once she hits 36 weeks.

I just don’t even get WHY you would want your baby to arrive that early. I don’t see how it’s best for baby OR you.

*scratches head*

I just feel like she’s setting herself up for a ton of frustration and disappointment because it’s very likely she’s going to be pregnant for at LEAST another month. She’s a first time mom so really, it could be another 6 weeks. She’s going to burn herself out way before she actually goes into labor. I just really don’t understand why you would desire for your baby, who is really supposed to bake for at least 38-42 weeks for proper brain and lung development, to arrive early just because.

One baby has already been born in my due date club. I believe the mama was due at the very end of October. He’s doing very well! Doctor is estimating at least another 4 weeks in the hospital, though. Another mama is in labor right now, she’s 35 weeks 5 days I think? I keep checking for updates and photos. Many other mamas have been dealing with contractions for weeks, are on bedrest, have been in L&D multiple times, quite a few labors have been stopped…we have a batch of super eager babies! 

I’ve been feeling for a while like Baby Girl will come sooner rather than later. I am perfectly fine with her staying snug until 42+ weeks, but I just really don’t feel like it’s going to happen. Gut feeling I guess…I tell her all the time she’s not allowed to get any ideas before Halloween at the earliest. That’s a little over a month away! It’s so soon I can’t even believe it…yesterday I was coming to the realization that in the next 10 weeks or so I WILL be going into labor. It seems so unreal. All of pregnancy has seemed very unreal to me, but that realization that I will be having a baby…I can’t even wrap my head around it. I wonder if I will be one of those women who labors for weeks, or one of those woman who thinks, "I don’t know…is this it?" for a few hours only to go in and be dilated to 9 already. Or somewhere in between…

The mystery part of it is fun!

I’ve been trying to visualize and imagine my birth. I have the feeling I will go into labor in the day time…head to the birthing center sometime in the evening, and have her sometime in the late night/early morning. I’m probably completely off, those are just the images I always get in my head.

I’m going to be honest though. The idea of having a baby is so completely overwhelming that I don’t think my mind even allows itself to fully get the concept. I let myself get all wrapped up in the little details- getting the clothes ready, reading the books, that when I realize that my life is about to change forever it’s always a huge HOLY SHIT moment. The other day at the grocery store this little girl was begging her dad for something she had found and Jonathan and I just looked at each other and I was like, "Every single shopping trip from now on is going to be different".

I ask myself all the time if I’m ready, if we’re ready, only to realize…it doesn’t really matter, does it? She’s due in 51 days and she’s coming no matter how ready we are, emotionally, mentally, physically, financially…she’s on her way. We’ve begun our descent and very soon, we’ll be coming in for a landing.

She’s getting huge. She spends a lot of her days now just chilling, and then out of nowhere she’ll flip around and I’ll gasp, sometimes in shock and sometimes in pain. When she does get going now, you can see elbows and knees and feet poking out from across the room. She’s starting to respond to music and noises a lot more, and loves hearing her daddy talk. She will literally not move all day when I’m at work and he’ll stop in to see me and she’ll go nuts.

Most of the big details are taken care of. My doula is hired. We have pretty much everything we need (I might get a boppy, I need some wipes, and some nursing bras and tanks, and I want to find something to labor in. That’s all we need). Most of the things I want done before she gets here are done. We’re just entering that stage of waiting now, but that’s ok. I’m fine with waiting for a while.

I’m not sure when I last posted a picture but here’s the most recent at 32 weeks-

I felt like crap that day, can you tell? Lol.

I want to get out today or tomorrow and take some nice pictures outside again. I’ve been trying to every few weeks at least. 

Ok, I’ve got to get something productive done with this day. 

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September 23, 2012

The belly looks gorgeous! I didn’t think I wanted a boppy, but then I got one when she was like 6 months old, and wished I’d had it from the beginning. I would recommend it! I went into labor exactly when I thought I would. Perfectly calm night, not quite 1am, labored in the dead of night. Drove to the hospital pitch black, empty roads. It was just… exactly like I pictured. Also Iwas so so so glad to realize that I made it to labor starting naturally without once trying to get he rout early, or feeling like I wish she would hurry up. I just… waited for her. It sounds silly, but I am SO unbelievably proud that I was able to do that.

September 23, 2012

The belly looks gorgeous! I didn’t think I wanted a boppy, but then I got one when she was like 6 months old, and wished I’d had it from the beginning. I would recommend it! I went into labor exactly when I thought I would. Perfectly calm night, not quite 1am, labored in the dead of night. Drove to the hospital pitch black, empty roads. It was just… exactly like I pictured. Also Iwas so so so glad to realize that I made it to labor starting naturally without once trying to get he rout early, or feeling like I wish she would hurry up. I just… waited for her. It sounds silly, but I am SO unbelievably proud that I was able to do that.

September 23, 2012

The belly looks gorgeous! I didn’t think I wanted a boppy, but then I got one when she was like 6 months old, and wished I’d had it from the beginning. I would recommend it! I went into labor exactly when I thought I would. Perfectly calm night, not quite 1am, labored in the dead of night. Drove to the hospital pitch black, empty roads. It was just… exactly like I pictured. Also Iwas so so so glad to realize that I made it to labor starting naturally without once trying to get he rout early, or feeling like I wish she would hurry up. I just… waited for her. It sounds silly, but I am SO unbelievably proud that I was able to do that.

September 23, 2012

The belly looks gorgeous! I didn’t think I wanted a boppy, but then I got one when she was like 6 months old, and wished I’d had it from the beginning. I would recommend it! I went into labor exactly when I thought I would. Perfectly calm night, not quite 1am, labored in the dead of night. Drove to the hospital pitch black, empty roads. It was just… exactly like I pictured. Also Iwas so so so glad to realize that I made it to labor starting naturally without once trying to get he rout early, or feeling like I wish she would hurry up. I just… waited for her. It sounds silly, but I am SO unbelievably proud that I was able to do that.

September 23, 2012

The belly looks gorgeous! I didn’t think I wanted a boppy, but then I got one when she was like 6 months old, and wished I’d had it from the beginning. I would recommend it! I went into labor exactly when I thought I would. Perfectly calm night, not quite 1am, labored in the dead of night. Drove to the hospital pitch black, empty roads. It was just… exactly like I pictured. Also Iwas so so so glad to realize that I made it to labor starting naturally without once trying to get he rout early, or feeling like I wish she would hurry up. I just… waited for her. It sounds silly, but I am SO unbelievably proud that I was able to do that.

Wow, it’s gone b so quickly, from this side of things. I know what you mean about everything changing. It’s crazy! I remember women in my birth groups being the same way about thinking that 37 weeks was an eviction date instead of a “best after” date.

Wow, it’s gone b so quickly, from this side of things. I know what you mean about everything changing. It’s crazy! I remember women in my birth groups being the same way about thinking that 37 weeks was an eviction date instead of a “best after” date.

Wow, it’s gone b so quickly, from this side of things. I know what you mean about everything changing. It’s crazy! I remember women in my birth groups being the same way about thinking that 37 weeks was an eviction date instead of a “best after” date.

Wow, it’s gone b so quickly, from this side of things. I know what you mean about everything changing. It’s crazy! I remember women in my birth groups being the same way about thinking that 37 weeks was an eviction date instead of a “best after” date.

Wow, it’s gone b so quickly, from this side of things. I know what you mean about everything changing. It’s crazy! I remember women in my birth groups being the same way about thinking that 37 weeks was an eviction date instead of a “best after” date.

September 24, 2012

I can’t picture my labor at all, it’s all going to be so surreal I have no idea what to expect! I’m just hoping that I don’t go into labor in the office and have my water break by the break room or something, how awkward would that be? 😀 I also am content to wait until this baby is done cooking to have it, I’m almost 35 weeks but I’m still not feeling any, “Get this thing outta me!” urges.

September 24, 2012

I can’t picture my labor at all, it’s all going to be so surreal I have no idea what to expect! I’m just hoping that I don’t go into labor in the office and have my water break by the break room or something, how awkward would that be? 😀 I also am content to wait until this baby is done cooking to have it, I’m almost 35 weeks but I’m still not feeling any, “Get this thing outta me!” urges.

September 24, 2012

I can’t picture my labor at all, it’s all going to be so surreal I have no idea what to expect! I’m just hoping that I don’t go into labor in the office and have my water break by the break room or something, how awkward would that be? 😀 I also am content to wait until this baby is done cooking to have it, I’m almost 35 weeks but I’m still not feeling any, “Get this thing outta me!” urges.

September 24, 2012

I can’t picture my labor at all, it’s all going to be so surreal I have no idea what to expect! I’m just hoping that I don’t go into labor in the office and have my water break by the break room or something, how awkward would that be? 😀 I also am content to wait until this baby is done cooking to have it, I’m almost 35 weeks but I’m still not feeling any, “Get this thing outta me!” urges.

September 24, 2012

I can’t picture my labor at all, it’s all going to be so surreal I have no idea what to expect! I’m just hoping that I don’t go into labor in the office and have my water break by the break room or something, how awkward would that be? 😀 I also am content to wait until this baby is done cooking to have it, I’m almost 35 weeks but I’m still not feeling any, “Get this thing outta me!” urges.

September 24, 2012

I am so on the same track mentally. It’s all really surreal but the closer the actual due date gets the stranger it seems. Shopping trip changes…good point….had not yet thought of that one. :s

September 24, 2012

I am so on the same track mentally. It’s all really surreal but the closer the actual due date gets the stranger it seems. Shopping trip changes…good point….had not yet thought of that one. :s

September 24, 2012

I am so on the same track mentally. It’s all really surreal but the closer the actual due date gets the stranger it seems. Shopping trip changes…good point….had not yet thought of that one. :s

September 24, 2012

I am so on the same track mentally. It’s all really surreal but the closer the actual due date gets the stranger it seems. Shopping trip changes…good point….had not yet thought of that one. :s

September 24, 2012

I am so on the same track mentally. It’s all really surreal but the closer the actual due date gets the stranger it seems. Shopping trip changes…good point….had not yet thought of that one. :s

September 24, 2012

Your belly looks so tiny!! Baby girl is definitely nice and snug!

September 24, 2012

Your belly looks so tiny!! Baby girl is definitely nice and snug!

September 24, 2012

Your belly looks so tiny!! Baby girl is definitely nice and snug!

September 24, 2012

Your belly looks so tiny!! Baby girl is definitely nice and snug!

September 24, 2012

Your belly looks so tiny!! Baby girl is definitely nice and snug!

September 27, 2012

Aww! She will be here before you know it! 🙂 Every little detail of you life is definitely getting ready to change! But it is such a wonderful change!:)

September 27, 2012

Aww! She will be here before you know it! 🙂 Every little detail of you life is definitely getting ready to change! But it is such a wonderful change!:)

September 27, 2012

Aww! She will be here before you know it! 🙂 Every little detail of you life is definitely getting ready to change! But it is such a wonderful change!:)

September 27, 2012

Aww! She will be here before you know it! 🙂 Every little detail of you life is definitely getting ready to change! But it is such a wonderful change!:)