Moving

 I started writing this on July 28th and never finished it…I’m terrible.

We’re moving. I’m not really sure to where yet, but we’ve gotta get out of this neighborhood. It’s getting really scary, and now our cat murdering psycho neighbors* don’t like us, so we can’t have our cats outside at all. the dogs can’t go out, we can barely go out…we’re going to stay at my sisters for a month or so, while we save up for a deposit and first month and everything for a new place. 

* I don’t know if I’ve talked about the cat thing at all on here. Our neighbors ran over another neighbors cat on purpose (she heard the whole thing from her porch, where they couldn’t see her), have been treating her terribly ever since and laughing at her (?!) and all kinds of ridiculous shit. They make comments to/at us now because we’re on "her side" or whatever.

This immature bullshit is coming from grown men with children. I hate this neighborhood and the scum here. I can’t wait to be in a new neighborhood miles away from here.
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Since I wrote that, the neighbors haven’t really done anything huge but there have been little things, including telling my neighbor, Anne, whose cat they ran over (who finally moved) to "get over it" quite a few times, and "it was just a cat".

It’s so disgusting.

So anyway, I just wanted to update long enough to say that we are moving. We’re moving our stuff out this coming Saturday, except for a bed and couple of things, and then we’re moving out officially by the 1st. I’m glad we’re moving, but I’ve been a fucking emotional wreck. Moving out of our first home is making me emotional, finding homes for the kittens, the fact that it’s almost September (and thus, nearly 3 years since my mom died), and most of all, my incessant pain. I work all day, come home and work more, go back to the work, etc…and on the weekends I’m working full-time on the house, so I have had no time to rest and my pain just keeps getting work. I’ve been up for a little over an hour and my feet hurt too bad to walk, so apparently sleep doesn’t even reset the pain anymore.

It sucks and I’ve had quite a few meltdowns this week over the fact that I’m 20, my pain is so bad I can’t walk somedays, and I don’t have any idea what’s wrong with me. Oh, and no insurance to find out. I really want to find out, so I can find out if there’s anything I can do, to avoid just going downhill and getting worse and worse until I actually can’t walk someday 

Today is a surprise day off…there weren’t enough dogs so I wasn’t needed, so that’s stressing me out, too, but at least I get a little time off to pack.

Oh, I also forgot to write about going to a beach house with my family last week. It was so gorgeous, and such a nice break. We haven’t been able to afford a vacation in a really long time, but this one was at no cost to us, and it was awesome to be able to relax for a few days. Our friends petsit, so we didn’t have to worry about the animals at all, and it was awesome. I will post pictures from that soon…

I’ll try to write more, too…I don’t know why it’s so hard.