Me

Believe that life is worth living and your belief will help create the fact.
William James

 
Once again, I have made all of my previous entries private. I just get the urge sometimes, this time I think it’s due to the new year. It just seems like a good time for a fresh start.

Since this is my only entry currently, I wanted to do a little intro for new readers. To my current readers- hi! I’ll be making some of the private entries FO for you guys soon.

I am 19 years old, living with my boyfriend and a menagerie of pets in (sometimes) sunny California. I have been on OD for over 6 years. I’ve made a lot of friends, I’ve made a few enemies, I’ve went through obsessive stages of writing where I’d write multiple entries a day, and I’ve gone through stages where I didn’t update for months. I’m really trying to start writing more, mostly for me, because being able to reread my diary and relive memories has always been very special to me.

I’m very close to my family and they, along with the other people I love, mean the world to me. My mom passed away 2 years ago and I lost a huge part of myself and my life. I really had to kind of start over after I lost her, and at least once a week I still think of a question I wish I could ask her, or something that I wish I could share.

My biggest goal in life is to someday be "Mommy" to a few little ones. Children are one of my greatest passions. For now, I baby-sit frequently and I’m also a nanny.

I love reading, and though I’ve always been good with writing, I can’t do math to save my life. I’m an "old soul", I have the curiosity of a cat, and most days, I want nothing more than a warm bath and a bowl of soup. I love food (love it), I love music, and nothing makes me cry faster than hearing about something bad happening to a child or an animal. I believe in treating people how I want to be treated, but I’m not afraid of letting someone know if I have a problem. I dream of someday living on a ranch with acreage for my pets and kids to be able to run on.

I live a pretty quiet life, and that’s the way I like it. My boyfriend is my best friend in the world and I can’t imagine not having him by my side each day (especially with what the last year has put us through).

Oh, and I like to take pictures. Here’s one now:

Day 1 of 365 Days of 2010: New Year’s Day