In The Dark..

I’m sitting in the dark crying this very moment. I’ve decided I have to let go of it all. Because it’s doing me no good holding on to the things that just aren’t there. I gave you love. I gave you time. But all you did was take, take, take away. I’m not really sure why I’m writing this now.

It’s not like you will read this. You told me once I was just so cute because I was such a child. The truth is I’m not a child. I wish I was with all my heart. I think those who truely know me, know this to be true. I act and try to be like one but I’ll never be one. You tried to mold me, make me into this something I’m not.

I’m not real sure why I’m writing this. I’m not sure why I should care about how this will effect you. How breaking this trend will even phase you? The sad truth is I know it won’t even hit you at all. That if you see this you won’t even think this is about me. You’ll push the blame onto another party like always. And come running to me when you need someone because no one else is there. I’m not someone for you to come running to anymore. I’m not a punching bag. I’m just a girl and I wish so hard that you could see that.

The hardest thing in this life is just to live. Live Dawn, Live

Buffy Summers May 01′

~Sonja~