Dreams

Everyone has them. Everyone follows them wihtout knowing it. Or do they? I mean growing up we’re told to follow our dreams though we know people before never actually followed their dreams. Does that mean that is going to happen to us? Does that mean we’re going to end up not able to follow our hearts puriest deseries? I don’t know, I really don’t.

The world is so strange at the moment. I’m standing the edge of my locked away castle. That’s what I call the fortress I built around myself. I decided a week ago that I would come to the edge and just maybe let someone in. I don’t know yet. I’m not to sure if I’m quite as ready as I think I am. I’m still scared of getting hurt. In fact I know I’m afraid of it. In fact I know that’s all I can think about is I could get hurt. That the next person is probably like the last and will hurt me.

But I find myself slowly but surely not beliving that anymore. I’m not sure if I can trust my judgement on this one. Or the judgement of others. Well wait yes I can. But I’m going crazy inside my head and I’m not sure what to think at the moment. Maybe someone will surprise me with a random flower or a hug or something tomorrow or within the next few days. sigh, the hopeless person I am.

Don’t be afraid my friend, if you know them then you know they won’t hurt you

~Sonja~