The Angry Side of Sonja

I guess it’s time to fill people in on what’s really going on in my life. I’ve kept it quiet because I really didn’t want anything getting back to certain peoples. And no it’s not any of you so relax. I just know how google works and it’s scary. Anyway before I go off on that tangent…..

In August, I was rather angry at Blockbuster well, angry at Pat for taking her emotions out on my schedule yet again. So I went and applied at Best Buy…and well I got the job. I couldn’t turn it down. That would be crazy of me to turn it down. It presented a great opportunity for me that I hadn’t had before.

Which I was going to put my 2 weeks in, heck I actually just thought of walking in and being like Pat I quiet see ya, wouldn’t wanna be you. I was really that angry. But I talked to Heather after Pat got back from vacation and she was like Pat was Pat again and not weird and stuff. So I was like okay whatever. I’ll just go in and talk to her.

I voiced my upsetness. Considering I also found out she was told she could fire me and was considering it. But she said she didn’t do it, but I wasn’t turning down Best Buy. So I told her I’ll work till we get more help. But only on the weekends. Which was working but end up just conflicting more with Blockbuster then anything.

And I was just getting more angry and angry and annoyed at the place. Going into Blockbuster made me just so angry. I wasn’t happy. I hadn’t been happy even before the August innicedent. We all know it. I didn’t realize it till Best Buy. I really hadn’t, I mean I was smiling and laughing and joking again. It was all weird. I wasn’t complaining at all about anything really.

So we’ll fast forward before I get sappy sappy. To 2 weeks ago. Pat is all we have this Flex position that’s going to be availble. I have to let them know by Tuesday who I pick. I was thinking about it. I might of took it. But from consulting Heather and a few other people. I realized I really couldn’t take it. It wouldn’t be fair to Pat or myself. So I told her no and that November 5th would have to be my last day.

Well we’ll fast forward to last weekend. I woke up and my stomuch was in knots. I was quite nasueas. But I went into Best Buy anyways. I really didn’t want to but I couldn’t find the theomoter to take my temp anyway. So I got there and BR was like you can leave early if you want. I think I left 15 minutes earlier then was suppose too. I called my dad and he picked me up. But he was like look it’s your brothers last Rugby game you have to sit thru it.

I was like fine whatever, I can sit in the van. I’m sitting there all nice and cozy under all the random coats in the van. And it was like oh hey there’s Skyler playing Rugby he’s to old to be playing Rugby. But whatever, no biggie. Well the game gets over and John finally had shown up and took me home. Where I took my temperature and it was 100 something, I don’t remember it was almost a week ago. It was like well I really can’t go in with a temp. So I called in.

Pat ofcourse was not to happy with this. But is she ever? No.

So I wake up the next morning and am actually feeling good. Which I was glad, I really didn’t want to call in twice or to Best Buy. I hate when that happens. So at about 2:30 Heather calls me, and is all Yeah we don’t need you to come in. Pat overscheduled tonight. Which I know she didn’t. I had just looked at the schedule on Thursday and I was the only one on there. So I was like let me talk to Josh. So I do talk to Josh and he’s like oh yeah. I was like are you sure? I can come in, it’s no big deal.

Ofcourse he’s like no, it’s all good Sonja. Don’t worry about it. See you this weekend. I was like okay whatever. I went into Best Buy. And I ofcourse know how Pat works, and was telling Rob and Will how Pat was basically giving me the big FU Sonja. Which is what it felt like. But really it was like whatever not much I can do.

So I stop by Blockbuster after Best Buy on Sunday and try to talk to Heather for a few but it’s crazy steady. But I found out Skyler called in to on Sunday and Heather was like Pat was just in one of her moods. You know how that goes. I was like yeah true. And I told Heather about Skyler not really being sick with the Flu and lying to Pat.

So I left and the following day I let John return my pre-streets. Cause to be honest I really didn’t want to leave the house ite was my day off and I was going to be lazy.

So finally yesterday, I was like lets go in and get my pre-streets and tell them I’ll be late on Saturday since my schedule changed. I go in and look at the schedule and I"m not on it for the weekend. No big deal this weekend. I would of felt bad having to come in late. I really do hate that. Then I picked out my pre-streets and Josh pulls up my account and it’s non-employee. It’s like What the Hell. I was like Josh get her on the phone.

So He pulls her up on his fancy new cell phone. (Which it really is fancy and cool and plays Snow Patrol. GRRR) Anyway back on topic, I go to the backroom to talk to her. And I"m like What the Hell Pat. She’s like I accepted your resgination. I was like it wasn’t suppose to be till the 5th of November Pat. You know that. I know that. She was like I know I accpeted it early. Put all the paperwork thru and everything. I was like but Pat I wanted to work my last shifts. She was like I know, but this is easier on you. And I got everything covered.

We both know working two jobs has been hard on you. Hard on the store here. It just isn’t fair to you. And you know I still like you, we all do. You think we want you to go? If we had it our way you would stay. You know that. And you have to come in and see us and stuff.

Just went on like that for ten minutes. Ofcourse this is like a big deal to me, so I was crying. Why wouldn’t I be crying. I gave 5 frickin years to that place and to not even be called or told before yesterday is what is really the must upsetting thing about it all. I could of got a phone call. No instead I’m left to be a victim of Pat’s emotions. pfft whatever. I keep crying over it all, it really is stupid to cry over it. But It just upsets me. And I"m going to keep rambling so I’ll be done for now.

Sorry for the long entry. Hope all is well out there. Peace!

-Sonja