The Moment Binding

I got lost in a thought…………..

I was walking, alone, looking for something more then I knew in this life. Something more then could be expected. I looked and I looked for the reality in it all. I couldn’t find it. I couldn’t escape. I felt so alone and cold. It gets so dark when I’m on this path. The trees hang over and the limbs are dead. I don’t quite know who is real and who is not. I see the faces and hear the voices but none of it phases me. None of it makes me believe like it use too.

Then I snapped out of it. But still felt the remoarse ever so more. I’m not so sure about these feelings in my life. I’m not so sure about these thoughts in my head. I’m so confused and bewildered at these thoughts that I get to a point of harm. But I stop myself because my friends made me promise. I just keep telling myself. Make it till monday. Make it till Monday. You’ll be just fine. But the thing is what if I won’t be just fine?

Sometimes a sucidal cut doesn’t have to peirce the skin but sometimes it just might peirce the soul.

~Sonja~