Another day of NoJoMo…
I started to write one entry but decided not to. I was going to vent because today has been one of those days. I woke up with a bit of a headache and then while getting ready for work I kept forgetting things. I almost left out of the house without one part of my lunch. Then I was attempting to leave again and realized I had forgotten to brush my teeth. And then I realized that between myself and J neither of us had let the dogs out so had to do that. It was one of those days that you go seriously if it’s starting out like this what’s the rest of the day going to be like? Of course then my drive into work had some frustrating moments. Which those were what I was going to write about but now…it’s like I’m not even going to bother.
Everything else is going okay in life. Still busy with the whole planning process. Plus now I’m waiting to see when drama’s going to hit. J made a choice a while ago to cut some people out of his life so now I’m just waiting for those people to be stupid enough to come at me. It’s one of those people that lacks a brain to mouth filter so they say stupid stuff quite often never thinking how it sounds. They never stop to go "oh wait I look like an idiot saying this". They just blurt it out. I know the person is eventually going to come at me in a drunken stupor and J’s already told me before that I have permission to fire back at them. I don’t have to play nice in other words. I’ll probably try to play a bit nice but it won’t be 100% nice. Some people, including this person, have been given one too many chances. Plus you reach a point where you can only allow so much disrespect out of a person before you stand up for yourself and put them in their place. So I know it’s coming. This person just hasn’t been smart enough to put all the pieces together like J blocking them on Facebook vs them thinking he just deleted his page. You figure that would be an easy thought especially if the person stops responding to any texts from you. Hmm, doesn’t take a lot to figure out maybe the page isn’t deleted. Maybe it’s just you who was deleted. It sucks he got pushed to that point but he had to do it. Things were messing with his happiness too much. When you hit a point where anytime a person’s name pops up and you instantly groan and roll your eyes…that’s a bad sign. I stopped trying to talk him out of doing it. After enough weeks of him wanting to do it…I knew it was truly the choice he wanted and wasn’t just being made because he was mad or tired or drunk or anything else.
It sucks. I know he’s easily written people off before but it doesn’t mean the person likes doing it. I know that’ll have people going "well why not try to work things out with the person?" He’s tried. He’s gone straight to the person and been blunt about his thoughts and the issues at hand. The person did the whole "oh okay" but then turned around and continued to do the same thing. You come to a point where you can either keep being dis-respected and put up with it or you can change things. He changed what he could. Now we just have to focus on the things we want in our life and start working to accomplish them. One step at a time. I admit…some things scare me. Life is changing a lot for me over the next year or so. As excited as I am about it all….I’m scared. Making some big changes. I have faith it’ll work out. But it doesn’t mean it’s not scary. lol Oh well…I’m wrapping this entry for now. It’s not great. Sorry but it’s been that type of day. My mind is somewhere else.