NoJoMo me…

So for those new stragglers who stumble across my diary and wonder just who I am I figured I’d tell a little about me.  I’ve been writing on OD for longer than I realize most days.  In fact usually when I go back to see when my first diary entry was I’m amazed.  It doesn’t seem like it’s been that long but yet it clearly has.  I started writing because I needed it.  I needed that place to go and write, to vent out the thoughts in my head no matter how stupid they were or how silly or how accurate they were.  I needed that spot that I could truly just let it all out and not really have to worry about judgment from others.  I needed to be able to express the darkness that was filling me at times, eating away at who I was.  It’s no lie to say that this diary helped save my life.  Being able to express the pain I felt at times helped me.  Having those few random readers leaving notes helped.  When you could have totally strangers being supportive of you and all they know is your words…it does more than you realize.  Because sometimes our words are the best view of who we are because it takes away looks and all those other things that we tend to use when we judge people.  Granted sometimes we don’t realize we do it but…we do.  That’s off topic though.  So a long time ago I stumbled on this diary.  Which actually I was originally trying to find a different site that a friend had been using but my search brought me here and this is where I’ve stayed. 

I could do the cliche of saying I’m just me and that I’m not like other people but isn’t that true for most of us?  That’s why I don’t really believe in normal because really what is normal?  Ask enough people and you’ll get a variety of definitions when it comes to figuring out what is normal for different things.  Some people find open relationships normal.  Some people don’t.  I’m someone that tries to keep an open mind.  Just because I’m not familiar with something doesn’t mean I don’t like it.  There have been plenty of things that someone introduced me to and I liked it.  Types of music, sports, etc.  I truly do listen to all types of music.  Okay maybe not all but enough that you’d be okay with me saying that.  Country, rock, rap, heavy metal, oldies, pop, hip-hop, punk and lots of others.  Then again in this world every time you turn around someone’s creating a new genre of music.  You’ve got country singers doing their songs a bit rock style.  Then you’ve got harder rock groups doing songs a bit country style. 

I’m a writer.  I’ve written a few short stories.  I’ve written a lot of poetry.  I’ve got a story in the works that I still need to finish.  I’ve got another story that I need to go back through and fix up.  I’m a bit creative.  Sometimes I get ideas for ways to decorate things and I run with it.  I’m happy to have that type of mind.  Some people no matter how hard they try can’t do those things.  It doesn’t work for them.  Yet there are things they could do that I can’t.  I love music.  I love horror movies.  I love my family even if they can drive me completely insane at times.  I try to love life.  I like Facebook.  Yes I am addicted to some of the games on there.  I’m happily in a relationship and truly know what it’s like to be happy.  I know what it’s like to fall more in love with someone.  I know how you can love someone so much but yet that person can also be the one who pisses you off the most.  I’ve learned how sometimes another person can truly make you feel complete.  I’m not a perfect person.  Not even close to it.  I try to admit my flaws.  I try to fix the ones I can.  I believe in astrology and horoscope signs.  I say that because for me at least…mine fits (Scorpio).  I suck at trying to write about myself lol.  I don’t know what to say and what not to say.  I’m pretty open to answer any questions anyone asks me.  I’m fully okay with the fact that not everyone in life is going to like me.  And that’s fine with me.