Shoe shopping and the like.

 

 

I have been looking on Zappos.com for shoes that have extreme arch support.. I’ve found a couple of things that I like with good reviews, now I just need to find a way to set aside 60+ dollars for shoes. I’m really very cheap, usually… not so much when it comes to stuff for the kids, but primarily… cheap. lol 

I THINK these are the final pair, although I’m not 100% sold on how supportive they’ll be, and I may end up returning them later:

pink! 😀

There’s another pair I like better, but all of their support and shock absorbency ratings were for the heel, and whie I DO have heel pain, I really need arch support.. the ratings were high for the arch support, but that’s just the consumer ratings, not the manufacturer specifications. This pair (The Skechers) have specific manufacturer comments about mid-sole support and shock absorbency. ALRIGHT!

Now, before anyone gets any crazy ideas, I’m not planning to do any RUNNING, good lord, no… but, I am on my feet a LOT all day at work. So, in any event, I’ll need some good supportive shoes. 

Man, does anyone have a toddler/baby swing they want to give me? I’ve been looking for one for Milo (the kind that attach to a swing set, not like a baby swing for indoors) and I can’t find any at a reasonable price. 35$?? I think not. 15 would be reasonable, I feel. I’ve been looking in used places and at second hand stores, but I haven’t seen any. I need to hit up some garage sales, but I don’t like doing that alone, and I hate rifling through CRAP. lol. I have enough CRAP!! hahaha.. 

Kasin inherited a large tote of new clothes from a lady at work who moved into a new cabin and the previous tenants did not take any of their stuff with them- leaving behind a boy’s entire wardrobe, it seems… Almost all of it was the right size for Kasin, and there packages of brand new boxers, as well. And lots of cool cartoony socks and some nice hoodies, pants, shorts, swim trunks, and a few shirts. He didn’t really need more shirts, but the rest was welcome. ESPECIALLY underwear, because underwear are like, 2 for 15$ brand new. I felt kind of ooky taking someone else’s clothes, but .. well, those people are apparently gone and not coming back, SO! There were also some cool toys (Legos, Pokemon books, etc) that he was pretty pleased with. 

Busy day- spent the weekend cooking, which is always nice. Dropped Ross off at Jesse’s for a jam session, took Milo to Once Upon a Child for new books, because I’m sick of the same 5 board books he makes me read over and over- we lucked out and hit an awesome sale- buy 3 books, get 3 free. We got 12 books for 3$. NICE. We had looked at similar ones in Barnes & Noble for close to 10$ EACH. BWAHAHAHA!! lol Of course, he still wants the same 5 board books from before… *sigh* I tried. lol I actually may go back and get some more, because, hell, 12 books for 3$?? Heck yes. I may have an addiction to books. I should have looked for some chapter books for Kasin, honestly… 

We also got gas and came home to make potato soup- SO YUMMY. it had carrots and onion and cheese in it, very tasty. Kasin came home as I was starting the soup, and Milo helped me make it… by adding all of the chopped veggies to the pot they were going to boil in, which I set on the table next to him so he could put them in there and have something to do. He was pretty pleased. He likes getting into everything and being in the way 😉 I wish I had endless money so I could buy him one of those helping tower things, the little crate-style step stools that he cant fall out of.. he topples off of the kitchen chairs all the damn time, but I can’t keep him out of them.

After that we got the kitchen tidied and Milo’s room, as well, and vacuumed it. Kasin swept and mopped the kitchen, per his regular weekend chores. He didn’t earn his allowance this last week because he basically never did his evening chores during the week (partially my fault, though…) and he was pretty bummed about that. We started the week off right with dishes, sweeping and mopping. Hopefully we remember better this week. Soccer only has a few weeks left and then he’ll be freer and evenings will be less insane. That being said, I’ve been looking into Tae Kwon Do for him. There’s good bundle uniform+lesson prices at a couple of local places, now I just have to figure out where they are at. I think Kasin would be more comfortable if he had a friend going with him, but the only kids we know who are also doing TKD are a few age groups behind him. Ah, well. He makes friends pretty easily, and really you don’t play with the other kids much in TKD anyways.

I’ve been feeling achy and teary over my lack of a female child. Silly, I know.. you should see my Amazon wish lists.. there’s a "Baby Fever" section that is FULL to overflowing with adorable pink items.. *sigh* I want a girl so badly. All the hair bows and earrings and tutus and adorableness… I can’t really explain why it’s so different, to me, than having boys… just all of the things about having a girl, I want them. Just one female child, is that too much to ask? I used to want 4. Just 4 girls, and no boys. HA! Got too greedy with my daydreams, I suppose. I had a brilliant dream the other day about being pregnant and updating my facebook status after the ultrasound: girlS. to announce that it was twins, both girls. Fantasy world? Yes. But would it be unbelievably amazing? Yes. I would be overjoyed. Ross wouldn’t like it so much, but whatever. I’ve ALWAYS wanted twins, but it’s gotten especially terrible lately because a.) Ross only wants one more baby (okay, he doesnt really want ANY more, but he’s agreed to ONE more.) and I’ve always wanted 4. and b.) I’d LOVE LOVE LOVE to have 2 boys and 2 girls, it would be idyllic.. make up for lost time. *swoon* I know, this is ridiculous. There’s a little girl who is about the same age as Milo at soccer (she’s the baby sister of one of his team mates) and it KILLS ME how cute her little shoes and skirts and pearl earrings are… even though she’s a hideous child. (I swear, that sounds awful, but if you saw her, you’d probably gasp.) 

Anyways. I know that’s nothing new, but there you have it.. and I feel so petty for caring at all, and I have so many friends (especially here on OD) who have 3 and 4 and 5 boys and have always wanted girls, that it SCARES ME, first off, and makes me feel bad for complaining, second off. I only have 2 boys.. that’s not really a running record, yet. I figure 2 can be a fluke, 3rd times the charm, right? I can’t decide if I’m being paranoid in thinking I’ll just be doomed to all boys, or if I should honestly try in earnest to do a gender sway in the future when I try to have more. I very well may try it, just to feel better and up my chances, at least in my mind… but I honestly don’t know what I’ll do if I have another boy, the thought of it makes me want to cry. And I WOULD, honestly, like to foster-to-adopt, but it’s such a process, and we’re so unstable at the moment, planning to move in a couple

of years, etc.. I like being pregnant, I like the process and excitement of HAVING a baby myself, and I DO want a little girl from infancy. I want her to be mine, mine, mine. And also a HER.

Whatever, I’m off on a tangent.. forgive me, all.

Speaking of tangent, Ross had a mini-mental break down last night. This is actually really GOOD NEWS!! He’s been off of his medication (zoloft, for those interested) for anxiety/depression since, oh… January? Idk, maybe before that, all I know is that it’s been ages, and it’s been AWFUL. he seriously makes me INSANE when he doesn’t take his medicine. It makes ME anxious and depressed, for crying out loud. He’s intolerable. Anyways, so we were lying in bed together and he was almost asleep, I had turned on a documentary (Busting Out!) on Netflix via my laptop, had headphones on, just chilling out… and then Ross sits up in bed. I didn’t think much of it until about 10 minutes passed, and then I took my headphones off and asked if he was okay. It was clear that he was getting choked up about something, and he started to babble when I got closer. He apologized for being impossible, thanked me for putting up with him, told me he doesn’t know how I do it and that he’s so glad I do. That was incredibly validating. 

He also admitted that he needs his medication, and that I was right about it, and that he helps and he can tell the difference, now… and that was very reassuring to hear, as well. He just signed up for insurance at work, so hopefully he gets his insurance cards soon and he can make an appointment with an actual neuro/psych. Heather recommended the fellow that she sees, but he’s hard to get in with.. and he decides on a case-by-case basis whether or not he’ll take a new patient. I feel like we have a slim chance of getting in with him. There’s another Dr in the same office, though, who is new and will most likely take him. I’m not sure how he’ll feel about seeing a woman, though. Man problems. *shrug* Discussing sex drive an the medication effects and such, plus he just feels really rather slighted by having anything wrong with him at all, pride and such… Men. *sigh*

Hopefully he gets in with SOMEBODY and they are able to help him.. a lot. And then hopefully everything gets much better. He was so much happier and more tolerable when he was taking it, even though he really didn’t take it as prescribed, ever… which made it less effective than it could have been, otherwise. I think NOW he understands.. and I really want to get him in with Heather’s Dr, because he’s said to be an expert in anxiety disorders and very scientific in his explanations, which I think will help Ross with understanding and accepting everything. He needs to hear from someone else that the medication works a certain way and that he needs to use it the way it was prescribed, he needs to hear HOW it works, chemically and biologically, etc. He’s very concrete, scientific and so forth. 

With that, I need to pee, and so, I shall go.