Hoping for relief

 I’m not sure what started the anxiety tonight.  It could be that it’s my Mom’s last day here tomorrow, that I spoke to my shrink today and it brought up old things that I am now thinking about again, or just the simple fact that I had 2 cups of coffee and a cigarette right before bed.  

I am leaning more toward my mother leaving though.  It’s been so nice having her here, I don’t know what I’m going to do without her!

It really sucks, too, because I was doing so well.  I had only felt anxious one day the whole 2 weeks she’s been here.  I need her to stay for my sanity… I think I will ask her for just one more week.  I’m so scared to be alone!

I am feeling that pit in my stomach, I’m shaky, my chest is tight, my hands and arms feel tingly….  How did it get his bad??  I really hope I don’t feel this way the rest of my life.