How Life Has Changed…

 Wow, so since my last entry, I’ve had my daughter, and she is beautiful, named her Avalynn!  A little spoiled and bratty at times, but I blame grandma.  She watched her for the first two years of her life and hardly ever heard the word no.  I’ve also had a son since then too!  His name is Warren, I hated the name but my husband is big on family names, but now I wouldn’t call him anything else, except "Wo-nee".  That’s what Ava calls him and it kind of stuck.

I was working at the best company ever, but had to quit two months ago because we couldn’t afford childcare for two little ones.  I am extremely sad I had to quit.  I am a stay at home mom now, and MAN it’s hard.  There is absolutely no time for yourself at all.  I am lucky if I get a shower or get to go to the bathroom by myself!  I don’t have any friends with kids close by, so my husband and I didn’t know what the hell we were getting ourselves into.  Don’t get me wrong, I love my kids, but a warning would have been nice.

These past two months have also been hard on our marriage… Hell the past two years have been!  I have such little time for myself, but NO time with my husband.  Nobody is brave enough to watch an 11 month old and two year old that we know besides grandma, and she’s all babysitted out… So we get a date every 3-4 months maybe…  

Who knew life would turn out this way…  Everyone keeps saying it will get easier, but when you’re living the hard now, you just want to punch them!  Especially when they don’t have kids themselves.  I just wish I had someone to talk to who can relate… Guess that’s why I wrote again… 

Just glad I’ll be done with nursing soon, then it will get much easier.  So ready to have my body back to myself!