It all rolls down from the top
Man I am so glad I still have this thing!! Stupid Facebook and Myspace where everyone and their freakin dog is signed on…. I like how annonymous this is and nobody knows I have it… so I can just complain about whatever the hell I want and get it off my chest without offending anyone I see on a daily basis. I don’ t understand what it is about writing it all out either, well in this case I guess it’s typing, but it just really helps calm me down.
I know this sounds really stupid, but today at work (which I’m still semi new at so I haven’t really made too many friends) one of the people who I thought I got along with pretty well snapped at me. And you know, normally, I wouldn’t take such offense to it, but I was already having a bad day and things were just adding up one after the other, and it really upset me! Here I was thinking I was making a work buddy, and then BAM!
Whatever… I should know that you can’t trust anyone to really give a shit about you anyway.
And now, one of the only people I really believe that does give a shit about me is moving states away… I’m really going to miss my sister. Damn it! She put in her two weeks notice and she’s going to be leaving me the middle of July… Just a month left.
Why does everything always have to get worse? First all my friends I’ve ever had stab me in the back or just get bored of me, then I lose my family in a divorce, and not just lose them, but it seems like I don’t have any parents anymore or that they could care less about me and now the only friend besides my husband I have is going to be gone…
I’m so antisocial I don’t know what I’m going to do with myself…
And we’re having money problems, so even if I did happen to get invited anywhere I couldn’t go b/c I can’t afford it. So much for keeping the positive attitude and sticking it out. Man… it just gets so hard sometimes… I almost can’t take it. But I have to, because what else can you do about it?
One things for sure, I’m going to get drunk tonight… I’m tired of thinking.