I almost forgot

Man it’s been a long time, I almost forgot I had this thing!  I don’t have the internet right now, bills are too tight because we are saving up for the wedding.  I’m living with Josh for the moment, but that will be changing soon due to parents/religious influences.  Here’s the story behind that.  While Josh was pursuing me, he had a "mentor" of sorts that he would talk to, and this man happens to have been his sunday school teacher.  But they have been meeting on Sunday nights at Bills house to have cigars for years to talk about religion, politics, whatever, you name it they cover it.  Well, Josh looks up to this man quite a bit, and I don’t blame him.  He strikes me as a knowlegable man, and recently we asked him if he wouldn’t mind marrying us since he’s had a part in the relationship thus far.  He agreed, but this was before we moved in together.

Turns out the week we moved in Bill also wrote up a contract saying in order for him to mary us we had to:

1. Be living in seperate places and restrain from sex

2.  Attend church regularly

3. Have pre-marital counseling from Bill

and 4. Come to him first before filing divorce if this issue should come up.

Now…. I understand that Josh and his family and Bill are pretty religious… but I am not.  I came from a totally different background.  I don’t think living together is bad, I don’t think sex before marriage is bad as long as you know you are going to marry this person and/or it is/was truely an act of love.  I do believe there is a god, but I’ve never taken the time to read the bible.  I don’t know what I would label myself be it Catholic, Baptist.. whatever!  So this contract thing got me going.  Anyway, I understand that it is a big deal to Josh… so I agreed that we would get an appartment together and I would live there and pay half of the rent, and Josh would hang out there a lot but sleep at his parents at night and pay the rest of the rent.  That just kinda sucks to me.  I feel like.. well… We’ve already done the deed… what’s the big deal?  I don’t know.. I’m just frustrated with myself because I told myself that I’d live with the person I marry before we actually get married.  I want to know everything will work!  So I’ve been a little upset about that.

Anyway… I’ve gotten a bunch of the wedding plans out of the way.  So far we’ve decided it will be held at the Northeast Wedding Chapel.  ( http://www.northeastweddingchapel.com ), our DJ is Music to Remember (http://www.mtrdjs.com), our cake is being made by Texas Star Bakery (http://www.texasstarbakery.com), I got my wedding dress from Davids Bridal, and for our eats we’re just going to cater sandwhiches and snack trays from Albertsons or something, and already sent out the save the date cards.  Our Honeymoon is going to be in Jamaica!  8 days and 7 nights at the Sandals resort in Negril (http://www.sandals.com)!  That’s going to be GREAT!  : )  and we’ve already got our passports.  So I think all I need to do is find my bridesmaid dresses, get the invitations,  get some decorations, the marriage license, rent the guys tuxes, decide the music, and get Josh’s wedding ring!  I hope that’s everything…. LOL It’s been a lot of work though.  I decided on my colors finally though, it’s going to be purples and cream.  Not too bad I guess.  It’s a spring wedding.. but I couldn’t find a good color combo that was bright and cheery, but also didn’t look like an easter egg.  LOL  I can’t wait… I think I’m finally comming to terms that it’s real.  It’s just wierd to think someone would love me enough to want to spend the rest of their life with me.  So wierd….