dumb b*tch

Man it’s been a while since I last wrote.  So many things have been happening to me and I’ve just been trying to avoid them at all costs.  I don’t know what the hell i’m going to do with my …. Tom.  I don’t even know if calling him by boyfriend or ex-boyfriend is appropriate.  Josh is persistent as hell and I’m just confused about everything.  I think I just want to be single.  I’m just tired of it all… all the let downs and the damn empty promises and stupid words that mean nothing.  relationships are a joke and everyone seems like they just can’t live without one.  well, I have heather and that’s all i need damn it.  i just don’t care anymore. 

damn grandparents came down too, the ones that don’t give a shit about us and were acting like they do.  I hate how many people in my life have pretended to give a shit.  whatever, so i just go along with it.  not like anything can change it.

i got in a car wreck last night.  some girl decided she wanted to pull out from a side street and run into me.  that was fun, to bad she didn’t hit harder, maybe things could have turned out for the better.

Just about the only thing i’m happy with is my new job.  I almost feel important, if i wasn’t the lowest position in the department.. but whatev it pays well, i think.  I’ve yet to get a paycheck and i won’t for anothe 10 days. 

i’m broke as fuck. 

the stupid house isn’t selling, I don’t want to move but i’m sick of haveing to leave on call whenever someone wants to come and check it out.  it’s always at the worst times, and it’s not like i have any friends or anywhere to go when they do so i just drive around and waste gas. 

man i complain too much…. shut the FUCK up heidi