Four: All You Need

I drift away to a place;
Another kind of life.
Take away my pain,
I create my paradise.

What I NeedSenior year of college has officially began. If you’re wondering why I haven’t written in so long…well its because I have to keep up with my studies. It’s hard enough keeping up with life right now – much less writing a journal. I know it’s healthy and I should do it.

SO I started therapy at my new place. The lady is really nice but it’s going to take a lot of adjusting on my part. Besides, it’s not free anymore. It will be $60.00 a session and I am not quite sure if I can afford that. I haven’t had a job since March and the only thing I live off of is Financial Aid. That has to do me until January whenever I get my Aid again.

SO on a more positive note, it’s so strange how someone from the past can come into your life and it’s like you never stopped talking. This has recently happened to me. I had a amazing friend in college named Jamie, whom I haven’t talked to since approximately 2008. We rekindled our friendship and it’s still the same, comfortable feeling I always had with him. He makes me feel understood and safe. I don’t know why I allowed him to get so far gone out of my life. Never again will I let this happen.

My dieting has been on and off. I am still wearing size 3 and it’s disgusting. I am probably borderlining on size 5 if I had to guess. I used to wear 10 in childrens. I miss being that small. I truly do. With all the stress I’m under, I’m afraid to add anymore stress with health when my emotions are so dreadful.

I guess I will end this here. Thank you all for being here for me.

Sincerely,
Katrina