Just bend the pieces til they fit

I had a total emotional breakdown last night (an hour before work mind you)

I was watching the hospital shooting episode of Greys and I broke. This whole time I have been waiting for a release and it finally happened.

I called my sister right away and she calmed me right down. I am so lucky to have the siblings that i do. Nothing but amazing support and great people to look up to.

I was just having irrational fears of failing and of not living up to their expectations.

After I let that all out, I felt a huge weight lifted. Work last night went better than ever, and I feel like I completely got all of that negative energy out of me.

I am trying really hard to be a more positive person. To take risks, even if they end up being embarrassing mistakes or don’t work out…whatever.

I am getting drinks next weekend and I was going to bring a buffer, but I am going to just go alone. I have this different kind of confidence now where I feel like I know who I am, where I am comfortable with myself.

Oh a side note, I have lost 5lbs since Sunday.

I "work out" harder at work then I feel like I do at the gym, so both of those combined have worked out so far.

I am growing tired of FB and Twitter. It makes it so easy for people to be mean and hurtful because they are sitting behind a computer screen. It’s just really starting to get to me.

For example..someone was asking opinions on a flu shot. This is exactly what I said:

"I got a flu shot in 2007 and I had never been so sick as I was that year. Double ear infections, strep throat and multiple colds. I won’t ever get one again"

Some person responds and says their opinion and then adds another comment:

"And you can’t get strep from the flu shot, that’s just stupid. Sounds like BriAnna just has bad luck"

And this girl i am friends with "liked" that comment.

I responded:

"I know the shot didn’t give me those illnesses, I was just sharing my experience"

Then I deleted all of my comments from that thread.

 

Another thing I need to work on is not taking everything to heart.

But do you know what I mean?