selfish

I was browsing through online forums about losing loves ones and stuff like that..I originally was looking for info on fast heart rates and obviously got distracted.

I read through some of them, and felt angry. I mean most of them were people whose parent(s) have just died at an old age. So I got furious. They shouldn’t be whining..they got to have them almost their whole life..I lost my dad when I was 21..

I feel really bad for the thoughts that went through my head, and for feeling like that..but I can’t help it. I don’t know what ‘stage’ that is..but I think I will be in it for awhile.